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''Dark phrases of womanhood
Of never having been a girl
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-''Half-note scattered without rhythm
-''Without rhythm
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''No tune distraught
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''Her laughter falling over
A black girl's shoulders
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-''lt's funny
-''Funny
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''lt's hysterical
The melodylessness of her dance
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''Don't tell nobody
Don't tell a soul
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-''She's dancing on beer cans and shingles
-''Beer cans and shingles
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''This must be the spook house
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''Another song with no singers
Lyrics, no voices
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''And uninterrupted solos
Unseen performances
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''Are we ghouls?
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-''Children of horror?
-''Children of horror?
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''The joke?
Don't tell nobody, don't tell a soul
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''Are we animals?
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-''Have we gone crazy?
-''Have we gone crazy?
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''l can't hear anything
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''But maddening screams
and the soft strains of death
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''And you promised me
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''You promised somebody, anybody
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-''Sing a black girl's song
-''Sing a black girl's song
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''Bring her out to know herself
To know you
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-''But sing her rhythms caring, struggle
-''Caring, struggle
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''Hard times sing her song of life
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''She's been dead so long
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-''Closed in silence so long
-''ln silence so long
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''She doesn't know the sound
Of her own voice, her infinite beauty
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''She's half-notes scattered without rhythm
No tune
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''Sing her sighs
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''Sing the song of her possibilities
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''Sing a righteous gospel
Let her be born
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-''Let her be born and handled warmly
-''Let her be born and handled warmly
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-''And this is for colored girls
-''ls for colored girls
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-''Who have considered suicide
-''Considered suicide
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''But moved to the ends
of their own rainbows''
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What you got to eat?
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''l've got a lot of work to do
and l can't with a man around
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''Here's your clothes,
there's some coffee on the stove
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''There's a paper cup
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''lt's been very nice
But l can't see you again''
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What did you say to me?
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''You got what you came for, didn't you?
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''l couldn't possibly wake up
with a strange man in my bed.
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''Why don't you go home?''
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l'm sure your wife is looking for you.
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Yeah. You know what?
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You know what? lt's not even worth it.
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Crazy-ass bitch. Where my shoes at?
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l'm looking for a Crystal Wallace.
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-Yes?
-Miss Wallace?
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My name is Kelly Watkins.
l'm with Child Welfare Services.
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What can l do for you?
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l need to discuss the safety of your children.
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Safety of my children?
What you talking about?
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Miss Wallace, please, open the door,
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or l'm required by law
to come back here with the police.
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512.
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Hold it!
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Thank you.
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Miss Wallace, no elevator?
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lt's a walkup.
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lt's a walkup. She kidding?
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Frank? Frank, open the door,
l know you are in there.
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Franklin!
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You got a woman in there? l'm tired of this,
you know? l am sick of your shit.
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''Without any assistance
Or guidance from you
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''l have loved you assiduously
For eight months, two weeks and a day
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''l've been stood up four times
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''Left seven packages on your doorstep
40 poems
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''Two plants, three handmade note cards
And l had to leave town to send them
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''But you've been no help to me on my job
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''You call at 3:00 in the morning
On weekdays
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''Charming, charming
But you have been of no assistance
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''l want you to know
This has been an experiment
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''To see how selfish l could be
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''To see if l could really carry on
Or to snare a possible lover
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''To see if l was capable of debasing myself
For the love of another
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''To see if l could stand not being wanted
When l want to be wanted, and l cannot
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''So, without any further assistance
Or guidance from you
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''l am ending this affair
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''There's a note attached to a plant that
l've been watering since the day l met you
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''You may water it your damn self''
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-Good morning.
-Good morning, Miss Gilda.
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ls somebody coming up?
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You know somebody's coming up,
Miss Gilda.
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Who is it? ls that Beau Willie?
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Can you get my mail
when you go downstairs?
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Yeah, l'll get it.
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You're gonna clean that up.
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-lt's dust. lt will blow away.
-Everything don't blow like you.
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Got a lot of men
coming through your house.
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You jealous 'cause you don't have
no men coming at all.
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Why don't you mind your business?
Your old ass better leave me alone.
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You have been the bane of my existence
since they voted you apartment manager.
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Shit.
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l can't stand that heifer. Just a tramp.
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Coming in here all hours
of the day and night, these men.
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-l'll talk to you later, Miss Gilda.
-Okay.
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Hi.
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-l need to start exercising again.
-You just did.
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Can l get you some water?
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That'd be nice.
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-l told the doctor she was okay.
-Yeah, l understand that,
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but any time a child is seen repeatedly
in the emergency room,
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we have to make a home visit.
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lt's just a bruise.
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Where are the children?
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Come on. Come on, baby. Come on out.
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Hi. Hi, you must be Kenya.
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-Are you Kenya?
-Yes.
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And are you Kwame, then?
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-l like your dress.
-Thank you.
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-ls that the children's father?
-Yes. He's sleeping.
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Come on over here.
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l just have a few questions for you.
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So, l'm Miss Watkins.
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Do you remember when you got hurt
the other day?
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Can you tell me how that happened?
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l just fall down.
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lt's all right, baby. What?
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You want.. . Let's go find that toy, okay?
Come on. Come on. Come on, sweetheart.
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Who are you?
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My name is Kelly Watkins
from Child Welfare Services.
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Child welfare?
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Ain't this a bitch? l called six months ago
to get my veterans benefits.
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l can't get a case worker, and you.. .
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How the fuck you gonna come down here
for some damn kids?
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-Sir, the city is very concerned.. .
-l've been asking them bastards!
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l defended this damn country
so you can have this job,
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and you gonna come in here
with this bullshit.
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Come in here about some damn kids.
What the fuck is wrong with you?
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Get the fuck out of here!
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Hey, come here.
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Diaz, can you call me back about
the Wallace house, please, right away?
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lt's not her that's hurting them kids. lt's him.
l babysit them. l know.
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l can hear everything through this wall.
That's why l called you.
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-You called?
-Yes.
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She can't protect them from him.
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Ever since he came back from the war
he's been crazy,
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and he drinks like a fish.
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''Came home crazy as hell
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''Went to Veterans Affairs
To try to go to school
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''But they kept right on
Putting him in remedial classes
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''He couldn't read worth a damn
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''So Beau accused the teachers
Of trying to hold him back
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''Went and got himself a gypsy cab to drive
But the cab kept breaking down
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''Cops was always messing with him
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''And then Crystal went
And got pregnant again
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''He most beat her to death
When she told him
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''She still got a scar under her right tit
Where he cut her up''
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Do her a favor, take them kids.
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-Thank you, ma'am.
-Yes, yes.
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-What? What?
-l need money.
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-For what?
-Things.
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l gave you money on the first.
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-l still need some things.
-For what?
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Do you know how hard it is to come up here
to have to ask you for anything?
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-Then stop doing it.
-l wouldn't if l didn't have to.
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What do you need money for?
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Granddaddy put me in charge
of his little will
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'cause he knew you would give all of it
to that cult.
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lt is not a cult.
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You would know that if you spent any time
down at the Temple of Elnohim.
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What is it that you don't understand?
l'm not giving you any money.
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You are gonna rot in hell!
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So, if l give you money,
l'm blessed of Elnohim,
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and if l don't, l'm gonna burn in hell, that it?
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l'm praying that you see God
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through the mists of the distances
that Satan has put in your heart.
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Goodbye, Alice.
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He has deceived you. He has deceived you!
Lured you with deception!
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Repent! Repent!
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Praise Elnohim.
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-Praise Elnohim.
-This one in particular, her name is Nyla.
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And l really think that she.. .
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God bless you.
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God bless you. God bless you.
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The golden kingdom awaits you.
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You just bought your way out of hell
for a dollar.
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l guess l did.
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Yeah, so go ahead,
you were talking about the girls.
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lt's so great. You should meet some of them.
They have so much hope.
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And they're getting that from dance.
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l love how your face lights up
when you talk about them.
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Yeah, l know, they excite me.
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You know, most of my girls graduate
from high school and go on to college.
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-That's amazing.
-lt is.
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What?
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No. lt's just that every day since l met you
two weeks ago we walk this route.
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l go off to work,
you go off to your dance class,
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and you still haven't answered my question.
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Bill, l told you.
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Do you know how much courage it took
for me to step to you on a crowded subway?
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-Come on now.
-l just got out of a bad relationship.
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l'm not trying to marry you.
l just want to take you to a nice dinner.
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-l'm gonna be late for my class.
-Okay, l see how it is.
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What?
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You're one of those people who only give.
You never let anyone give to you.
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Okay. Dinner. Tomorrow night.
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8:00. Tonight.
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-Okay. See you tonight.
-lt's gonna be great.
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''lt was graduation night
And l was the only virgin in the crowd
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''Bobby Mills, Martin, Jerome, Sammy Yates
Eddie Jones and Randy
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''All cousins
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''They pick me up in a black Buick
Smelling of alcohol and ladies in heat
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''We rambled from Camden to Mount Holly
Laughing at the afternoon's speeches
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''Our tassels dangling
From the rearview mirror
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''Climbing different sort of project stairs
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''We went to a party and l got drunk
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''And couldn't figure out
Whose hand was on my thigh
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''But it didn't matter because these cousins
Martin, Eddie, Sammy, Jerome and Bobby
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''Was my sweethearts alternately
Since the seventh grade
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''So, me and my fellas, we was dancing
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''Doing nasty old tricks
That l had been thinking about since May
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''lt was graduation night
So, it had to be hot
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''So, l had to make like my hips
Was getting in some business
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''That way everybody thought
Whoever was getting it
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''Was an older man who couldn't
Run the streets with no youngsters
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''The party got crazy and me and Bobby
Left the party before the police came
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''And we were in the backseat of his Buick
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''And, girl, he started looking at me
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''Yeah, he started looking at me real strange
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''Like l was a woman or something
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''And he started talking real soft
ln the backseat of that old Buick
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''And by the time the sun was coming up
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''l just couldn't stop grinning
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''Girl, you gave it up in the back of a Buick?''
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You better be talking about a ride to school.
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-We are.
-Have you done your warm-ups?
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-Yes.
-Yes.
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Yes? So, everyone ready to begin?
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Positions, from one.
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And five, six, seven, eight.
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00:18:05,918 --> 00:18:07,385
No. And again.
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Five, six, seven, eight.
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And Nyla.. . And spin.
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Nice.
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Keep going, ladies. Keep going. Sorry.
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Are you okay?
240
00:18:30,976 --> 00:18:35,845
Yeah, l'm just.. . l'm just a little nauseous.
l don't know what it is.
241
00:18:35,948 --> 00:18:38,917
l think you're just nervous about college
and being on your own.
242
00:18:39,017 --> 00:18:44,319
l've seen this before. Hey, you'll be fine.
You're a smart girl.
243
00:18:44,423 --> 00:18:46,891
Come on, l'll get you a ginger ale.
244
00:18:49,428 --> 00:18:50,725
Excuse me.
245
00:18:58,604 --> 00:19:00,162
-Coffee.
-Thanks.
246
00:19:08,147 --> 00:19:10,445
Unit's centered in the vicinity
of 135th Street,
247
00:19:10,549 --> 00:19:13,746
be on the lookout for a silver BMW
parked in an alleyway.
248
00:19:13,852 --> 00:19:15,820
Possible illicit activity. Over.
249
00:19:15,921 --> 00:19:19,413
This is Officers Watkins and Moreno.
We'll check it out.
250
00:19:21,860 --> 00:19:23,418
Resuming normal radio traffic.
251
00:19:32,437 --> 00:19:33,802
Ten-six unit's on check.
252
00:19:36,775 --> 00:19:39,209
-Get out of the car, sir.
-You're under arrest.
253
00:19:42,347 --> 00:19:46,545
-She's ready to see me?
-l'm sorry, it'll be just a few more minutes.
254
00:19:50,589 --> 00:19:53,752
-Where is Crystal?
-She called. She's on her way.
255
00:19:53,859 --> 00:19:58,762
-Does it take that long to make tea?
-l've got it right here.
256
00:20:06,405 --> 00:20:12,002
-l'm sorry, she'll be right with you.
-Honey, l'm the one sorry for you.
257
00:20:12,110 --> 00:20:16,444
This is boring, boring, boring.
These are all boring.
258
00:20:17,616 --> 00:20:18,981
lt's boring.
259
00:20:21,186 --> 00:20:22,414
The desk.
260
00:20:24,923 --> 00:20:26,618
This is all boring.
261
00:20:29,995 --> 00:20:33,761
Robe Rouge is a magazine.
lt is not a Web site.
262
00:20:33,865 --> 00:20:36,629
We need for this.. . Look, this layout.. .
263
00:20:36,735 --> 00:20:39,829
This layout needs to pop.
lt needs to be lush.
264
00:20:39,938 --> 00:20:43,066
We need to make our readers want to buy.
265
00:20:43,175 --> 00:20:46,372
Go back to the drawing board,
give me something with some sort of style,
266
00:20:46,478 --> 00:20:48,742
because this isn't it.
l don't like this, not one bit.
267
00:20:48,847 --> 00:20:51,338
-What about putting Rihanna on the cover?
-No, that's not gonna work.
268
00:20:51,450 --> 00:20:52,747
All right.
269
00:20:59,925 --> 00:21:01,358
l'm so sorry.
270
00:21:03,562 --> 00:21:05,826
Look who finally decides
to show up at work.
271
00:21:05,931 --> 00:21:07,592
So tell me, Crystal, what was it this time?
272
00:21:07,699 --> 00:21:11,294
You overslept,
the babysitter didn't show up. What is it?
273
00:21:11,403 --> 00:21:12,529
l'm sorry.
274
00:21:12,638 --> 00:21:17,234
You know, l have my limits,
even for very good assistants.
275
00:21:18,644 --> 00:21:19,906
Yes, ma'am.
276
00:21:20,879 --> 00:21:24,337
-Katina, where's my binder?
-Yes, l left it here on your desk.
277
00:21:24,449 --> 00:21:26,383
l knew you would need it
for your meeting this morning.
278
00:21:26,485 --> 00:21:29,977
-And my circulation reports?
-Circulation reports are attached.
279
00:21:30,088 --> 00:21:32,079
And your 9:00 is here.
280
00:21:32,190 --> 00:21:33,487
9:00? lt's 10:00.
281
00:21:34,393 --> 00:21:38,386
You agreed to meet with Juanita Sims.
She runs a non-profit organization.
282
00:21:38,497 --> 00:21:41,989
-Shall l ask her in?
-lt's fine. Fine.
283
00:21:48,874 --> 00:21:51,434
-Juanita Sims.
-Hi!
284
00:21:51,543 --> 00:21:56,242
l'm Juanita Sims,
and l'm so glad you took this meeting.
285
00:21:56,515 --> 00:21:58,710
Now l'll be quick,
because l know you're very busy.
286
00:21:58,817 --> 00:22:01,786
l read in your magazine
about your upbringing.
287
00:22:01,887 --> 00:22:05,880
l just knew that this would be a program
that you would respond to.
288
00:22:05,991 --> 00:22:11,224
First of all, l'm a nurse, and l have just
opened a free health and wellness clinic
289
00:22:11,730 --> 00:22:16,394
in a community center in one
of the poorest neighborhoods in this city.
290
00:22:16,501 --> 00:22:18,469
Forgive me. l'm just a little nervous.
291
00:22:18,570 --> 00:22:20,470
-As you know.. .
-Where do l come in?
292
00:22:20,772 --> 00:22:21,966
Well.. .
293
00:22:24,209 --> 00:22:28,305
lt's a little non-profit, and everything l do
l do out of my own pocket and.. .
294
00:22:28,413 --> 00:22:30,040
Let me stop you right now.
295
00:22:30,148 --> 00:22:34,141
l give to cancer, l give to Africa,
l give to education.
296
00:22:34,252 --> 00:22:37,619
-Those are my charities of choice.
-Well, those are all very good charities,
297
00:22:37,723 --> 00:22:42,251
but there is so much need
in our own community.
298
00:22:42,494 --> 00:22:43,461
''Our?''
299
00:22:43,895 --> 00:22:47,558
We are all afforded the same opportunities
in ''our'' community.
300
00:22:47,666 --> 00:22:52,865
What they do with theirs, it is not my issue.
Your answer is no. End of conversation.
301
00:22:53,605 --> 00:22:58,633
-End of conversation?
-Crystal, show Miss Simmons out.
302
00:23:01,780 --> 00:23:06,513
-lt's Sims. Miss Juanita Sims.
-Right this way.
303
00:23:09,187 --> 00:23:10,176
No.
304
00:23:11,857 --> 00:23:14,417
l've been waiting out there
in that damn lobby of yours
305
00:23:15,060 --> 00:23:16,960
for over an hour for you.
306
00:23:17,062 --> 00:23:19,462
Now, it's cool, you don't want
to give any money, l get that.
307
00:23:20,098 --> 00:23:24,091
But this attitude, this blatant disrespect
for other people's time and feelings,
308
00:23:24,202 --> 00:23:27,501
well, honey, that's just ridiculous.
Does it take all of this for you to be that?
309
00:23:27,606 --> 00:23:32,066
Then, honey, if it does, then you
may be paying just a little too much.
310
00:23:32,177 --> 00:23:35,078
And l can see myself
out of this tacky-ass place.
311
00:23:35,180 --> 00:23:40,413
Ain't got no color up in here, all this white.
No color up in this place, including you.
312
00:23:40,519 --> 00:23:43,920
Tacky-ass heifer. Wait till l tell everybody
how tacky you are.
313
00:23:44,022 --> 00:23:47,719
l can show my own self out,
thank you very much.
314
00:23:47,826 --> 00:23:49,987
How do l open this damn door?
315
00:23:52,464 --> 00:23:54,398
This is why
you haven't been able to conceive.
316
00:23:54,499 --> 00:23:58,196
Your fallopian tubes
are scarred here and here.
317
00:23:58,303 --> 00:24:01,864
We usually see this form from
a pelvis infection that was once untreated.
318
00:24:01,973 --> 00:24:03,497
What was once untreated?
319
00:24:05,310 --> 00:24:09,041
-Should we talk alone?
-No, it's okay.
320
00:24:09,147 --> 00:24:10,910
An untreated STD can cause this issue.
321
00:24:12,083 --> 00:24:15,052
ls there a surgery or something
that we could.. .
322
00:24:15,153 --> 00:24:17,587
l honestly wouldn't recommend it.
lt's very risky.
323
00:24:19,090 --> 00:24:21,957
Right. Okay. Excuse me.
324
00:24:23,829 --> 00:24:25,456
Thank you, Doctor.
325
00:24:33,572 --> 00:24:34,630
Babe.
326
00:24:36,475 --> 00:24:40,969
-Babe. lt's okay. Would you.. .
-l'm sorry l have to go to work.
327
00:24:41,079 --> 00:24:44,310
Would you talk to me?
328
00:24:44,416 --> 00:24:46,509
Do you know how hard it is
looking at all those people
329
00:24:46,618 --> 00:24:50,281
who do not want the children
that they have? And we.. .
330
00:24:51,590 --> 00:24:53,319
-Okay, let's talk about it.
-Let's talk later, okay?
331
00:24:53,425 --> 00:24:55,552
We'll talk later.
332
00:24:55,660 --> 00:24:57,821
-l love you.
-l love you, too.
333
00:24:59,731 --> 00:25:04,464
Now, first off,
these condoms are free, okay? They're free.
334
00:25:04,569 --> 00:25:09,029
Now, how many times have you heard
your man say, ''lt don't feel the same''?
335
00:25:09,140 --> 00:25:14,100
Yes, you've heard that.
Or he might say, ''Baby, l ain't got nothing.' '
336
00:25:14,212 --> 00:25:16,680
And his ass
ain't even been to the doctor. You.. .
337
00:25:18,283 --> 00:25:22,185
Excuse me for just one minute.
Take as many as you think you might need.
338
00:25:22,287 --> 00:25:23,413
Frank.
339
00:25:25,290 --> 00:25:27,850
-Hey, baby.
-Frank.
340
00:25:27,959 --> 00:25:31,554
l don't want to talk to you.
l haven't seen you in four days.
341
00:25:31,663 --> 00:25:33,722
Baby, you know l drive that truck.
342
00:25:34,432 --> 00:25:37,890
Frank, l know you. l can smell her
all over you. You've been with her.
343
00:25:38,203 --> 00:25:41,001
Baby, l've been eating donuts, okay?
344
00:25:41,706 --> 00:25:43,537
Look, l miss you.
345
00:25:43,642 --> 00:25:46,304
You don't miss me.
Look, l'm too old for this shit, Frank.
346
00:25:46,411 --> 00:25:48,402
You don't want to be with me
unless you can't be with her.
347
00:25:48,513 --> 00:25:51,243
-Baby, l love you. l do.
-You don't love me.
348
00:25:51,349 --> 00:25:54,318
Well, if you love me so much,
why don't you leave me the hell alone?
349
00:25:54,753 --> 00:25:56,812
-Now, come on. Don't hurt me like that.
-Hurt you?
350
00:25:58,189 --> 00:26:00,885
Get your ass out of here.
l've got to go talk to my ladies.
351
00:26:00,992 --> 00:26:03,859
-Baby, l just want to kiss those lips.
-Will you.. .
352
00:26:07,566 --> 00:26:08,999
Okay, ladies.
353
00:26:12,537 --> 00:26:15,097
Remember when you're using your condoms
354
00:26:15,206 --> 00:26:17,538
you need a water-based lubricant.
Where are they?
355
00:26:23,214 --> 00:26:24,511
Sure, why not?
356
00:26:24,616 --> 00:26:26,914
Excuse me.
Let me have a double vodka straight.
357
00:26:29,020 --> 00:26:29,987
What?
358
00:26:31,189 --> 00:26:34,090
You can tell a lot about a man
by what he drinks.
359
00:26:34,192 --> 00:26:35,921
And what does my drink say about me?
360
00:26:39,564 --> 00:26:43,398
That you're married, here on business,
361
00:26:43,501 --> 00:26:47,028
and you want to get a buzz on quick
so that you can have a good time,
362
00:26:47,138 --> 00:26:49,868
forget about the wife at home and all of that.
363
00:26:49,975 --> 00:26:52,068
-Wow.
-Am l right?
364
00:26:52,177 --> 00:26:53,144
Dead on.
365
00:26:55,814 --> 00:26:58,544
-So what are my chances?
-For what?
366
00:27:00,452 --> 00:27:02,477
Having a good time in your beautiful city.
367
00:27:03,688 --> 00:27:06,418
l'll tell you what.
368
00:27:06,524 --> 00:27:10,722
l'm off in a couple of hours.
l could show you around, if you're up for it.
369
00:27:10,829 --> 00:27:11,921
l'd like that.
370
00:27:22,574 --> 00:27:25,702
l kept the dinner warm for you.
371
00:27:28,313 --> 00:27:31,612
-How'd it go today?
-What are you talking about?
372
00:27:34,452 --> 00:27:39,116
-Thought you were gonna look for a job.
-Ain't nobody trying to hire a veteran.
373
00:27:39,224 --> 00:27:41,784
Get me a drink.
374
00:28:03,281 --> 00:28:04,805
You're not doing what l asked you to do.
375
00:28:08,019 --> 00:28:11,420
-l want a damn drink!
-Beau, maybe you shouldn't drink tonight.
376
00:28:13,591 --> 00:28:17,891
-You saying l got a problem?
-l'm saying you need to take your meds.
377
00:28:17,996 --> 00:28:20,897
-Now you're telling me what l should do?
-l'm telling you what l think.
378
00:28:21,199 --> 00:28:23,793
l'm not accusing you of anything.
379
00:28:23,902 --> 00:28:25,733
-Are you hungry?
-What?
380
00:28:35,046 --> 00:28:38,482
-l'm not an alcoholic.
-l know.
381
00:28:39,117 --> 00:28:41,779
l'm trying. l'm trying, Crys.
382
00:28:42,554 --> 00:28:43,885
l know that, too.
383
00:28:52,230 --> 00:28:57,099
l know what the military did to you.
l'm on your side.
384
00:28:58,002 --> 00:29:02,268
l know why you get mad sometimes.
l get mad.
385
00:29:04,375 --> 00:29:08,038
But sometimes when you drink,
386
00:29:08,146 --> 00:29:09,841
you get out of control.
387
00:29:10,548 --> 00:29:13,881
Don't drink tonight, okay?
388
00:29:21,993 --> 00:29:23,722
You love me?
389
00:29:30,135 --> 00:29:34,196
Man, l have loved you
since we were 1 4 years old.
390
00:29:41,246 --> 00:29:43,942
Ain't nothing changed at all
with Crys, right?
391
00:29:47,452 --> 00:29:51,286
lf you love me,
then why won't you marry me?
392
00:29:52,223 --> 00:29:53,281
Beau.
393
00:30:02,367 --> 00:30:06,736
We got more things to worry about
than getting married.
394
00:30:11,543 --> 00:30:15,377
Listen, l know we had a fight last night,
395
00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:18,847
but the silent treatment
just isn't good for me.
396
00:30:18,950 --> 00:30:24,889
You were supposed to meet for dinner.
Call me. l'm worried about you.
397
00:30:28,660 --> 00:30:30,525
''My papa thought he was Puerto Rican
398
00:30:30,628 --> 00:30:35,827
''We would've been, except we were
Just regular negroes with hints of Spanish
399
00:30:35,934 --> 00:30:38,528
''So off l made it to this 36-hour marathon
400
00:30:38,636 --> 00:30:42,868
''Con salsa con Ricardo Sugar Ray
on Southern Boulevard
401
00:30:42,974 --> 00:30:49,004
''lt was up, up, up, up, up stairs and stairs
And lots of hallway
402
00:30:50,014 --> 00:30:54,212
''My colored New Jersey self
Didn't know what anybody was saying
403
00:30:54,352 --> 00:30:59,312
''Except if dancing was proof of origin
l was Jibarita herself that night
404
00:30:59,424 --> 00:31:04,384
''l kept smiling and right on stepping
lf he could lead, l was ready to dance
405
00:31:04,495 --> 00:31:07,794
''lf he couldn't lead
l caught this attitude l'd seen Rosa do
406
00:31:07,899 --> 00:31:09,867
''And would not be bothered''
407
00:31:11,236 --> 00:31:17,334
-Mrs. Bradmore, are you ready to order?
-No, Danny, l think l'm just gonna go home.
408
00:31:17,442 --> 00:31:20,036
Can you have my driver pull around
and get my coat, please?
409
00:31:20,144 --> 00:31:23,636
-Yes, ma'am. Right away, ma'am.
-Thank you.
410
00:31:27,819 --> 00:31:29,946
-Hey, Mama.
-Hey.
411
00:31:43,835 --> 00:31:46,065
-You moved my box.
-What?
412
00:31:46,170 --> 00:31:50,004
-l had a box there. Where's my box?
-lt's right there, Mama.
413
00:31:50,108 --> 00:31:54,010
l don't like it when you move my things. l.. .
414
00:31:54,178 --> 00:31:55,145
l'm sorry.
415
00:32:08,993 --> 00:32:13,293
-l know you're tired, Mama.
-l'm tired.
416
00:32:16,134 --> 00:32:17,328
Come on.
417
00:32:21,639 --> 00:32:25,575
You're my angel.
You're nothing like your sister.
418
00:32:39,524 --> 00:32:43,426
-lt's only $38, Mom.
-That's all l made.
419
00:32:44,462 --> 00:32:47,295
l tried to get some more,
but your sister wouldn't give me any money.
420
00:32:47,398 --> 00:32:49,457
Maybe you shouldn't have told her
it was for me.
421
00:32:49,567 --> 00:32:53,867
l didn't tell her it was for you,
but you know l don't lie.
422
00:32:54,505 --> 00:32:57,565
-l know.
-She can't stand you.
423
00:32:59,177 --> 00:33:02,146
lt's because you're so much better
than she is.
424
00:33:02,246 --> 00:33:05,977
lf l told her that l needed money
for you to better yourself,
425
00:33:06,084 --> 00:33:08,211
she would never give it to me.
426
00:33:08,753 --> 00:33:13,053
She holds on to that wallet
like Jacob holding an angel.
427
00:33:15,326 --> 00:33:19,422
Maybe l can speak to your teachers
and l can pay it off over time.
428
00:33:19,831 --> 00:33:23,096
No, don't. She won't do that.
429
00:33:23,201 --> 00:33:27,535
Miss Yasmine said if l don't get the money,
then l can't get the application to apply.
430
00:33:30,541 --> 00:33:34,568
Elnohim will find a way. Don't worry.
431
00:33:39,083 --> 00:33:42,541
-All right, shall l read?
-Okay.
432
00:33:44,122 --> 00:33:47,558
''And dance is my thank you for music
433
00:33:48,092 --> 00:33:51,892
''And l love you more than dance
434
00:33:51,996 --> 00:33:55,932
''More than Aureliano Buendia
Loved Macondo
435
00:33:56,334 --> 00:33:58,825
''More than Hector Lavoe loved himself
436
00:33:59,237 --> 00:34:02,206
''More than the lady loved gardenias
437
00:34:02,306 --> 00:34:05,241
''Or Graciela loved El Son
438
00:34:05,343 --> 00:34:09,074
''More than the flamingos love being pretty''
439
00:34:23,928 --> 00:34:25,259
We're here.
440
00:34:27,331 --> 00:34:30,095
-l had the best time.
-l told you.
441
00:34:31,869 --> 00:34:33,928
-Thank you.
-You're welcome.
442
00:34:35,773 --> 00:34:37,240
So, can l come up?
443
00:34:38,476 --> 00:34:41,240
-lt's getting late.
-Okay.
444
00:34:43,047 --> 00:34:45,242
-Well, good night.
-Good night.
445
00:34:51,856 --> 00:34:56,850
Hey, you know what? l was thinking.
Maybe on our next date you can cook.
446
00:34:56,961 --> 00:35:00,397
You know, help a brother save some money.
447
00:35:00,498 --> 00:35:05,060
-l had such a good time, l will do that.
-Nice. Okay.
448
00:35:06,471 --> 00:35:08,837
Go on in. l want to make sure you're safe.
449
00:35:13,177 --> 00:35:14,144
Bye.
450
00:35:25,089 --> 00:35:27,387
Wait, wait, wait.
451
00:35:29,760 --> 00:35:32,695
Look, l got something to tell you.
452
00:35:34,365 --> 00:35:36,959
l only have about $80 on me.
453
00:35:38,236 --> 00:35:39,999
-What are you talking about?
-That's all l have.
454
00:35:40,104 --> 00:35:43,073
lf you want to go to the ATM, we can do that.
455
00:35:44,942 --> 00:35:48,002
You think l'm a hooker?
456
00:35:48,112 --> 00:35:50,580
-Aren't you?
-No!
457
00:35:55,419 --> 00:35:58,820
-l'm sorry. l'm drunk.
-What is so funny?
458
00:36:00,591 --> 00:36:04,459
l guess l'm just old-fashioned.
What kind of woman picks a man up in a bar
459
00:36:04,562 --> 00:36:07,053
and brings him back to her place
if she's not a hooker?
460
00:36:07,398 --> 00:36:09,423
One that likes to fuck.
461
00:36:11,369 --> 00:36:13,166
-Don't laugh at me.
-l'm sorry.
462
00:36:14,839 --> 00:36:16,636
Don't laugh at me.
463
00:36:18,509 --> 00:36:23,446
-This is some sick shit.
-You men with your double standards.
464
00:36:23,548 --> 00:36:25,743
You can do it, but a woman can't.
465
00:36:26,651 --> 00:36:29,142
Get out. Get out!
466
00:36:30,087 --> 00:36:34,524
That's a good idea.
You seem to do this too often to be healthy.
467
00:36:34,625 --> 00:36:37,219
You think l have some kind of disease?
468
00:36:40,331 --> 00:36:43,823
lf it ain't in your body,
it is definitely in your head.
469
00:36:47,338 --> 00:36:51,536
You ain't one to judge me
you son of a bitch!
470
00:36:51,642 --> 00:36:54,133
Now, what do you want?
471
00:36:54,245 --> 00:36:56,736
-Why won't you give Mom some money?
-Don't say a word.
472
00:36:56,847 --> 00:36:59,145
-A word.
-Bitch.
473
00:36:59,250 --> 00:37:02,242
l make sure that her rent is paid
and that she has groceries.
474
00:37:02,353 --> 00:37:05,686
-What more does she want?
-She needs some money.
475
00:37:07,124 --> 00:37:08,352
For what?
476
00:37:10,861 --> 00:37:15,389
Look, l have to pay
my college application fees.
477
00:37:15,666 --> 00:37:16,633
What?
478
00:37:17,134 --> 00:37:21,230
l got a scholarship to college,
but l have to pay my application fees,
479
00:37:21,339 --> 00:37:22,533
and she didn't want to tell you that,
480
00:37:22,640 --> 00:37:25,473
because she knew you wouldn't do it
if you knew it was for me.
481
00:37:26,577 --> 00:37:27,566
How much?
482
00:37:28,980 --> 00:37:30,106
$300.
483
00:37:30,982 --> 00:37:33,746
Girl, you think l'm Boo Boo the fool?
That don't sound right.
484
00:37:34,652 --> 00:37:37,212
lt's true.
485
00:37:41,425 --> 00:37:42,619
You've been fucking.
486
00:37:44,095 --> 00:37:48,555
-What? No, l haven't.
-l can see it in your face.
487
00:37:50,868 --> 00:37:55,305
-Are you pregnant?
-Not everybody is like you, Tangie.
488
00:37:56,407 --> 00:37:59,171
Yeah, but you are, little sister.
489
00:38:02,413 --> 00:38:05,712
And Mama is so proud of you.
490
00:38:06,651 --> 00:38:09,620
-Wait till she finds out you're pregnant.
-l'm not pregnant.
491
00:38:10,021 --> 00:38:14,321
How you gonna go to college like that?
492
00:38:14,425 --> 00:38:16,723
Mama's gonna die. You know it.
493
00:38:19,063 --> 00:38:20,496
l can't wait.
494
00:38:24,769 --> 00:38:29,331
He didn't use a condom?
Baby, you've got to use a condom.
495
00:38:30,107 --> 00:38:32,132
l remember the first time l got pregnant.
496
00:38:34,812 --> 00:38:36,370
l was so scared.
497
00:38:44,522 --> 00:38:47,616
l went to this apartment on 138th.
498
00:38:49,994 --> 00:38:53,395
A red building in the middle of the block.
499
00:38:53,497 --> 00:38:57,228
Down a back alley. Apartment 331 .
500
00:38:59,303 --> 00:39:02,329
l didn't have money
for no college application.
501
00:39:07,745 --> 00:39:10,509
But l wasn't pregnant anymore.
502
00:39:16,420 --> 00:39:18,650
l'm not giving you any money.
503
00:39:23,060 --> 00:39:24,755
l'm not pregnant.
504
00:39:40,678 --> 00:39:43,374
l've been trying to reach you all night.
505
00:39:45,616 --> 00:39:47,743
Yeah, my battery died.
506
00:39:47,852 --> 00:39:52,585
Your battery died. And you couldn't call me
from another phone and tell me that?
507
00:40:05,102 --> 00:40:10,438
You know, Carl, l was so worried about you
that l even called the police.
508
00:40:10,541 --> 00:40:13,669
You called the police? What they say?
509
00:40:13,778 --> 00:40:18,408
They told me to call back in 24 hours,
but you could have at least called me.
510
00:40:18,516 --> 00:40:19,744
Fine, Jo.
511
00:40:22,520 --> 00:40:25,614
This is about the fight the other night,
isn't it?
512
00:40:25,723 --> 00:40:28,851
No. l said my battery died.
513
00:40:28,959 --> 00:40:32,952
Yeah. You're still angry. l can hear it
all in your voice. You're still mad.
514
00:40:33,063 --> 00:40:35,327
Jo, l'm not mad, l'm not angry.
515
00:40:37,802 --> 00:40:40,600
Good, 'cause you don't have a right to be.
516
00:40:42,673 --> 00:40:45,335
Well, you could have told me, you know?
517
00:40:47,578 --> 00:40:50,376
-l could have told you. l could have told you.
-Yeah, you could have told me.
518
00:40:50,481 --> 00:40:53,348
l could have told you just the same way
you could have told me
519
00:40:53,451 --> 00:40:58,787
that you were gonna take $200,000
of my money, put it in some stock,
520
00:40:58,889 --> 00:41:02,222
and you didn't check with me,
not one time, Carl.
521
00:41:02,326 --> 00:41:04,487
lt's always about you and your damn money.
522
00:41:04,595 --> 00:41:06,586
Yes, it is. lt is. l earned it.
523
00:41:07,398 --> 00:41:08,990
Jo, l'm a broker.
524
00:41:09,433 --> 00:41:11,731
Everybody down at the firm
knows who you are.
525
00:41:12,203 --> 00:41:13,465
lt's embarrassing to me
526
00:41:13,871 --> 00:41:18,968
that l can't come home and make a decision
as a man in this house, so l took it.
527
00:41:20,077 --> 00:41:24,639
Okay? l took it, and l said l was sorry.
l don't want to talk about this shit anymore.
528
00:41:24,748 --> 00:41:27,808
That's fine. Don't talk about it.
529
00:41:27,918 --> 00:41:30,716
You're gonna listen.
Yeah, you're gonna listen, Carl.
530
00:41:30,821 --> 00:41:33,221
l know l have issues with trust,
531
00:41:33,324 --> 00:41:37,590
but when you make choices like this,
it doesn't help me, not one bit.
532
00:41:37,695 --> 00:41:42,132
You don't just have trust issues,
you got issues.
533
00:41:45,169 --> 00:41:46,261
l'm gonna go take a shower.
534
00:41:47,037 --> 00:41:50,234
Can l take a shower?
Do l have permission to take a shower?
535
00:41:50,708 --> 00:41:52,005
Thank you.
536
00:42:03,921 --> 00:42:05,946
-Hey.
-Hey.
537
00:42:07,791 --> 00:42:09,656
You're up late.
538
00:42:09,760 --> 00:42:11,250
l can't sleep.
539
00:42:16,767 --> 00:42:20,100
-How was the rest of your day?
-lt's where l left it.
540
00:42:22,573 --> 00:42:25,770
l understand that.
541
00:42:25,876 --> 00:42:29,004
-Are you hungry?
-No, babe.
542
00:42:29,713 --> 00:42:34,582
-You want to know what happened?
-You want to tell me what happened?
543
00:42:35,452 --> 00:42:37,545
Do you remember my friends from college?
544
00:42:37,655 --> 00:42:40,385
-Kiana and Nicole?
-Yeah.
545
00:42:41,225 --> 00:42:44,251
''The three of us were like a pyramid
Three friends
546
00:42:44,361 --> 00:42:50,891
''One laugh, one music
One flowered shawl knotted on each neck
547
00:42:51,869 --> 00:42:55,464
''We all saw him at the same time
548
00:42:55,573 --> 00:42:57,006
''And he saw us
549
00:42:58,976 --> 00:43:02,434
''l felt a thump in each one of us
Didn't know what to do
550
00:43:02,546 --> 00:43:06,880
''We all wanted what was coming our way
So we split
551
00:43:06,984 --> 00:43:08,076
''But
552
00:43:09,520 --> 00:43:10,885
''He found one
553
00:43:14,224 --> 00:43:16,522
''And l loved him''
554
00:43:18,596 --> 00:43:19,620
Okay.
555
00:43:19,730 --> 00:43:22,198
''The other two were tickled
556
00:43:22,299 --> 00:43:25,928
''And spurned his advances
When the one who loved him wasn't there
557
00:43:26,303 --> 00:43:31,331
''l couldn't figure out what was happening
558
00:43:34,812 --> 00:43:36,439
''And then the rose
559
00:43:38,082 --> 00:43:39,845
''l left by his pillow
560
00:43:42,386 --> 00:43:45,082
''l found on my friend's desk''
561
00:43:47,391 --> 00:43:49,359
There was nothing to say.
562
00:43:54,064 --> 00:43:58,398
Eight months later l woke up
with the worst cramps in my life.
563
00:44:01,505 --> 00:44:03,803
And now l can't give you a baby.
564
00:44:05,809 --> 00:44:09,802
Baby, you give me
so much more than l ever need.
565
00:44:09,913 --> 00:44:13,644
l love you. lt doesn't matter.
We'll get through it.
566
00:44:30,067 --> 00:44:32,331
Let me lock up so they don't steal this thing.
567
00:44:33,604 --> 00:44:36,505
-Jesus.
-Hey, baby.
568
00:44:36,607 --> 00:44:40,771
-Leave me alone, Frank.
-Can't we at least talk about it?
569
00:44:45,149 --> 00:44:49,381
Go home.
That's right, you ain't got no home to go to.
570
00:44:49,486 --> 00:44:51,249
-What?
-Somebody told me
571
00:44:51,355 --> 00:44:54,119
you moved out of your apartment.
What you do, move back in with her?
572
00:44:54,224 --> 00:44:58,558
-Hell, no!
-l'm sick of your lies and shit.
573
00:44:58,662 --> 00:45:01,563
Baby. Baby, l'm sorry.
574
00:45:02,332 --> 00:45:05,529
l'm sorry. l don't know why
l keep going back there. l mean.. .
575
00:45:05,636 --> 00:45:10,869
No, listen. This time it was different, baby.
The whole time l was there, l just.. .
576
00:45:10,974 --> 00:45:13,534
The whole time
l was just thinking about you.
577
00:45:13,644 --> 00:45:17,045
l mean, listen, if l can't have you, baby,
l don't know what l'm gonna do.
578
00:45:17,147 --> 00:45:19,308
What would l look like
letting you back in my life
579
00:45:19,416 --> 00:45:22,283
after all the advice l give
to the women at my clinic?
580
00:45:22,386 --> 00:45:26,083
-Babe, listen to me.
-Frank, you listen.
581
00:45:26,190 --> 00:45:29,682
Every time l let you move back in,
you do the same thing,
582
00:45:29,793 --> 00:45:32,660
and every time l come home
and you're not here, l do the same thing.
583
00:45:32,763 --> 00:45:35,323
l go through that closet,
l go through the drawers
584
00:45:35,432 --> 00:45:36,865
to see if your things are gone!
585
00:45:36,967 --> 00:45:39,060
l have to set an example for my women!
586
00:45:39,169 --> 00:45:42,297
You want me to be honest.
Now, l'm telling you the truth.
587
00:45:42,406 --> 00:45:45,773
-Baby, please.. .
-l'm not listening to this shit no more!
588
00:45:45,876 --> 00:45:48,811
lf you meant that, how come
you didn't say it in the first damn place?
589
00:45:48,912 --> 00:45:54,782
Because l didn't know how. Okay?
l didn't know how. Kiss me, sweetie.
590
00:45:54,985 --> 00:45:57,510
-Frank, just leave. Okay?
-Just kiss me. Kiss me.
591
00:45:57,621 --> 00:46:03,059
-Frank, no. Go. Frank. Frank.
-You love me. You love me, baby.
592
00:46:03,160 --> 00:46:04,593
-Frank.
-l love you, sweetheart.
593
00:46:04,695 --> 00:46:07,255
-Oh, my God, l love the way you smell.
-Frank. Frank, no. Frank.
594
00:46:07,364 --> 00:46:11,892
l missed you so much, baby.
Let me stay. Please, let me stay.
595
00:46:12,002 --> 00:46:13,196
Frank.
596
00:46:15,739 --> 00:46:18,708
You got any condoms?
597
00:46:23,380 --> 00:46:26,213
l called Dr. Belken.
He can see you this afternoon.
598
00:46:26,316 --> 00:46:27,305
Okay.
599
00:46:27,417 --> 00:46:30,477
These are from your husband.
He's on line three.
600
00:46:33,724 --> 00:46:35,385
What a pleasant surprise.
601
00:46:35,492 --> 00:46:37,790
Look, babe, l just called to tell you
602
00:46:37,895 --> 00:46:41,126
how sorry l was for the way
l've been acting the last few days.
603
00:46:41,231 --> 00:46:42,220
You're so right.
604
00:46:42,332 --> 00:46:46,462
l should not have taken the money
out of your account.
605
00:46:46,570 --> 00:46:48,538
l guess l just thought.. .
606
00:46:50,274 --> 00:46:53,675
Well, l thought l was helping you,
or us, l should say.
607
00:46:53,777 --> 00:46:55,438
And l thought it would gain interest,
608
00:46:55,546 --> 00:46:58,743
and l thought it would make you
really proud of me.
609
00:46:58,849 --> 00:47:00,180
But obviously l was wrong,
610
00:47:00,284 --> 00:47:05,654
so l'm just gonna say l don't blame you
for taking my name off the account.
611
00:47:06,790 --> 00:47:10,886
lt won't happen again, baby.
l'm really sorry.
612
00:47:10,994 --> 00:47:12,052
Thank you.
613
00:47:14,097 --> 00:47:17,066
l got you tickets to the opera tonight.
614
00:47:17,167 --> 00:47:20,534
You really must be sorry
if you're gonna sit through that again.
615
00:47:20,637 --> 00:47:23,800
What did you call it last time? Water torture.
616
00:47:23,907 --> 00:47:28,139
Yeah, water torture. Water torture.
But not with you, babe. Anything for you.
617
00:47:28,512 --> 00:47:30,446
See you tonight.
618
00:47:30,547 --> 00:47:33,243
-Bye.
-Bye.
619
00:47:33,350 --> 00:47:35,648
-l love you.
-l love you, too.
620
00:47:37,788 --> 00:47:38,812
Bye.
621
00:48:01,445 --> 00:48:04,107
-You Yasmine?
-Yeah.
622
00:48:04,214 --> 00:48:08,275
-lt's your birthday?
-No, just a guy l went to dinner with.
623
00:48:08,418 --> 00:48:10,511
He's nice. A gentleman.
624
00:48:10,621 --> 00:48:12,885
He wants to fuck you.
625
00:48:14,892 --> 00:48:16,382
Can l help you with something?
626
00:48:18,328 --> 00:48:22,321
Yeah, l'm here to pay
for the college application.
627
00:48:23,533 --> 00:48:25,467
l don't know what you mean.
628
00:48:26,003 --> 00:48:29,734
Sorry, l'm Tangie, Nyla's sister,
629
00:48:29,840 --> 00:48:35,836
and she said that she had $300 to pay
for a college application or something.
630
00:48:36,280 --> 00:48:39,681
-No, everything here is free.
-What?
631
00:48:39,783 --> 00:48:41,444
Everything here is free.
632
00:48:41,551 --> 00:48:44,748
Nyla's one of my best students. l'm sure
she won't have trouble getting in anywhere.
633
00:48:44,855 --> 00:48:46,482
That little slut!
634
00:48:50,294 --> 00:48:54,628
Bitch! She your favorite
while fucking me around. Bitch!
635
00:49:28,231 --> 00:49:30,631
-All right.
-Put your money down.
636
00:49:30,734 --> 00:49:33,601
Hold on. l'm trying to read something here.
637
00:49:56,460 --> 00:49:58,325
You don't move my cheese, man.
638
00:49:58,962 --> 00:50:01,226
You looking for me?
639
00:50:01,698 --> 00:50:03,222
Third floor.
640
00:50:16,880 --> 00:50:19,542
l'm Nyla.
641
00:50:19,649 --> 00:50:21,810
You don't have no name, girl.
642
00:50:23,587 --> 00:50:27,921
Come on. Sit down now on the table.
Right here.
643
00:50:28,025 --> 00:50:29,219
Come on.
644
00:50:31,862 --> 00:50:33,454
You got my money?
645
00:50:38,635 --> 00:50:42,696
Take your bottoms off and your shoes.
646
00:50:47,878 --> 00:50:49,345
Come on, girl.
647
00:50:53,417 --> 00:50:55,749
Come on, sit down. Come on.
648
00:51:05,395 --> 00:51:08,728
l've done this a million times, girl. Relax.
649
00:51:08,832 --> 00:51:13,565
''Young girls go out in the world
And they got to come see me
650
00:51:13,670 --> 00:51:18,300
''That world is something
l used to live in that world
651
00:51:18,408 --> 00:51:23,311
''Then l moved to Harlem
And my universe is now six blocks
652
00:51:24,081 --> 00:51:28,177
''A tunnel with a train l can ride anywhere
653
00:51:29,352 --> 00:51:31,081
''Remaining a stranger
654
00:51:33,023 --> 00:51:34,650
''l could stay alone
655
00:51:36,193 --> 00:51:40,095
''A woman in the world then
But l moved to Harlem
656
00:51:41,264 --> 00:51:45,428
''l come in around dusk
Stay close to the curb
657
00:51:45,802 --> 00:51:50,068
'''Round midnight praying
Won't no young man think l'm pretty
658
00:51:55,879 --> 00:52:00,612
''ln a dark morning wouldn't be good
Not good at all
659
00:52:01,351 --> 00:52:04,650
''To meet a tall, short, black-brown man
660
00:52:05,856 --> 00:52:10,293
''Full of his power in the dark
ln my universe of six blocks
661
00:52:10,393 --> 00:52:12,691
''Straight up brick walls
662
00:52:12,796 --> 00:52:16,493
''Women hanging out of windows
Like old silk stockings
663
00:52:16,600 --> 00:52:22,004
''Cats crying and children giggling
And a tavern with red curtains
664
00:52:22,472 --> 00:52:26,909
''Bad smells and kissing ladies smiling
665
00:52:27,677 --> 00:52:29,975
''And dirt sidewalks spitting
666
00:52:31,515 --> 00:52:32,777
''And men cursing
667
00:52:32,883 --> 00:52:36,148
'''Come here, bitch
Can't you see there's $5?'
668
00:52:38,822 --> 00:52:40,722
''l used to be in the world
669
00:52:40,824 --> 00:52:45,727
''Like, really be in the world
Free and sweet-talking
670
00:52:46,730 --> 00:52:49,062
''You know, 'Good morning'
671
00:52:49,499 --> 00:52:54,027
''And 'thank you' and 'nice day'
672
00:52:54,137 --> 00:52:55,764
''But not now
673
00:52:55,872 --> 00:52:59,433
''l can't be nice no more
l can't be nice to nobody
674
00:53:00,810 --> 00:53:02,539
''Nice is a rip-off
675
00:53:04,047 --> 00:53:07,073
''But l was in the world
A woman in the world
676
00:53:07,184 --> 00:53:09,414
''l had a right to the world
677
00:53:09,653 --> 00:53:14,317
''Then l moved to Harlem
For six blocks of cruelty piled up on itself
678
00:53:14,424 --> 00:53:16,790
''A tunnel closing
679
00:53:17,928 --> 00:53:20,988
''Open your legs, girl''
680
00:53:21,097 --> 00:53:22,621
Come on.
681
00:53:38,081 --> 00:53:39,912
-Hey.
-Hey. Come on in.
682
00:53:42,819 --> 00:53:46,346
-Wow, nice place.
-Thanks.
683
00:53:46,456 --> 00:53:49,220
What smells so good?
684
00:53:49,326 --> 00:53:52,693
-Me.
-Yeah, okay. Okay.
685
00:53:52,796 --> 00:53:56,698
l am cooking a Cuban feast for you,
my friend.
686
00:53:56,800 --> 00:54:00,292
We might have to just go on
and skip dinner and go right to the dessert.
687
00:54:00,437 --> 00:54:02,735
-Stop it.
-How about l get a hug?
688
00:54:06,543 --> 00:54:08,670
-You smell good, too.
-Thank you.
689
00:54:08,778 --> 00:54:10,837
Let me check on the bread.
You want some wine?
690
00:54:11,615 --> 00:54:14,015
l'll have some if you have some.
691
00:54:15,785 --> 00:54:19,551
-ls red fine?
-Yeah, it's fine.
692
00:54:22,359 --> 00:54:26,295
-l had a really nice time the other night.
-Me, too.
693
00:54:26,396 --> 00:54:29,297
l haven't done anything like that
in a really long time.
694
00:54:30,066 --> 00:54:32,864
Look at you.
You even chopped everything up all nice.
695
00:54:32,969 --> 00:54:35,597
-You can really cook.
-A girl has to eat, right?
696
00:54:35,705 --> 00:54:36,672
Guess so.
697
00:54:38,141 --> 00:54:39,506
Here's to good times.
698
00:54:44,381 --> 00:54:47,817
-Yeah, that's good.
-lt is.
699
00:54:47,917 --> 00:54:51,910
Bill, come on,
we're supposed to be having dinner.
700
00:54:52,022 --> 00:54:54,889
You know what was really nice
about the other night?
701
00:54:54,991 --> 00:54:56,288
What's that?
702
00:54:56,393 --> 00:55:02,491
l don't know it just seemed.. . Wasn't like.. .
Sometimes a date can be such a fake thing
703
00:55:02,599 --> 00:55:07,229
when people put on this personality
and it was so easy.. .
704
00:55:07,370 --> 00:55:09,235
-Bill.
-What?
705
00:55:09,339 --> 00:55:11,671
-.. .to be there with you.
-Yeah, it was nice.
706
00:55:12,242 --> 00:55:14,676
You know those times.. .
707
00:55:16,813 --> 00:55:19,475
-Put your clothes on.
-Why?
708
00:55:20,450 --> 00:55:22,714
Come on, we're both adults.
709
00:55:22,819 --> 00:55:26,880
And l know why you asked me
to come over here tonight.
710
00:55:26,990 --> 00:55:30,221
-No, you've got it wrong.
-No, l got nothing wrong.
711
00:55:33,463 --> 00:55:34,430
Stop it.
712
00:58:29,739 --> 00:58:32,139
-Where you going for lunch today?
-l'm not sure.
713
00:58:32,242 --> 00:58:33,732
l was thinking maybe Thai.
714
00:58:33,843 --> 00:58:34,867
Tea?
715
00:58:37,780 --> 00:58:40,874
-Where's the list of advertisers?
-Page seven of the report.
716
00:58:40,984 --> 00:58:43,544
Do you see it on page seven, Crystal?
717
00:58:55,698 --> 00:58:58,462
l took it home to make sure it was right.
l must have left it there.
718
00:58:58,568 --> 00:59:01,298
l have a very important meeting
in 45 minutes.
719
00:59:01,404 --> 00:59:03,372
What do you propose l do?
720
00:59:03,673 --> 00:59:05,038
l'll get on the train right now and go home.. .
721
00:59:05,141 --> 00:59:07,905
No. lt's gonna make me late.
722
00:59:10,246 --> 00:59:13,682
Come on, l'm gonna have
to take you home. Purse.
723
00:59:13,783 --> 00:59:15,375
Hurry up, Katina.
724
00:59:38,441 --> 00:59:40,773
-You're not coming up, are you?
-No.
725
00:59:48,284 --> 00:59:50,047
l hate coming to neighborhoods like this.
726
00:59:50,153 --> 00:59:51,381
-Are the doors locked?
-Yes, ma'am.
727
00:59:53,556 --> 00:59:54,545
Hi.
728
00:59:58,027 --> 01:00:01,519
-l saw you pull up in that car.
-lt's my boss.
729
01:00:07,403 --> 01:00:10,031
l thought your boss was a woman.
730
01:00:12,442 --> 01:00:13,602
She is.
731
01:00:26,022 --> 01:00:30,049
Then who's the dude in the front seat?
732
01:00:36,766 --> 01:00:40,759
You think l'm crazy, don't you?
You think l'm crazy?
733
01:00:40,870 --> 01:00:42,098
Where's your medication?
734
01:00:48,745 --> 01:00:50,679
ls that my mama?
735
01:00:52,615 --> 01:00:54,446
Did l ever tell you how l met my husband?
736
01:00:55,885 --> 01:00:59,150
''His name was Toussaint
l was eight years old
737
01:01:00,490 --> 01:01:02,515
''The library was right down
from the trolley tracks
738
01:01:03,459 --> 01:01:04,721
''Right across from the Laundromat
739
01:01:04,827 --> 01:01:08,593
''Through the big shining doors and
big pillars that old St. Louis was famous for
740
01:01:08,698 --> 01:01:12,190
''l found Toussaint
l knew l wasn't supposed to
741
01:01:12,301 --> 01:01:14,030
''But l ran into an adult reading room
742
01:01:14,137 --> 01:01:16,298
''And came across Toussaint
My first black man''
743
01:01:34,524 --> 01:01:35,548
One.
744
01:01:38,828 --> 01:01:39,988
Too far.
745
01:01:40,797 --> 01:01:43,732
You're gonna be a whore all your life?
746
01:01:44,267 --> 01:01:46,963
Beau Willie Brown,
you want the kids to see you acting a fool?
747
01:01:47,704 --> 01:01:52,107
Come on. Come on with Mama.
Sit by Mama. Right here.
748
01:01:54,444 --> 01:01:55,968
Come on, baby.
749
01:01:56,412 --> 01:01:58,346
''l just want to hold them
750
01:01:58,948 --> 01:02:01,473
''Don't want to cause you any trouble
751
01:02:01,584 --> 01:02:04,747
''l just want to marry you
And give you things''
752
01:02:08,291 --> 01:02:09,553
Come here, Kenya.
753
01:02:14,397 --> 01:02:16,228
l want to go to Daddy.
754
01:02:20,269 --> 01:02:23,727
Daddy, be nice to Mommy,
'cause you have to be nice.
755
01:02:23,840 --> 01:02:25,432
And Mommy loves you.
756
01:02:27,610 --> 01:02:30,670
Mommy's sick, baby.
757
01:02:33,916 --> 01:02:37,283
You see, Crystal? l can be a good father.
758
01:02:39,922 --> 01:02:43,688
Now, let me see my son. Come here, Kwame.
759
01:02:56,506 --> 01:02:59,703
You're still fine, strong.
760
01:03:00,810 --> 01:03:04,837
Didn't you get right back up,
that time we had that little fight?
761
01:03:04,947 --> 01:03:08,508
-You went right back to work.
-You gotta get help, Beau.
762
01:03:09,318 --> 01:03:10,751
You gonna marry me?
763
01:03:12,789 --> 01:03:16,919
Damn it, Beau, no. l'm not gonna marry you.
764
01:03:18,694 --> 01:03:21,822
My babies can't keep seeing
their mama like this.
765
01:03:25,101 --> 01:03:26,193
Your.. . Your kids?
766
01:03:27,737 --> 01:03:31,104
So, what you trying to say?
That they ain't mine?
767
01:03:33,209 --> 01:03:34,676
You're just a damn whore.
768
01:03:36,813 --> 01:03:41,807
ls that your man down there in that car?
Are these his kids?
769
01:03:42,652 --> 01:03:45,746
-Give me my kids! Beau! No!
-Get off me!
770
01:03:46,622 --> 01:03:48,180
Where the hell is she?
771
01:03:48,624 --> 01:03:50,319
Get off!
772
01:03:52,728 --> 01:03:54,889
-Beau Willie!
-No, no!
773
01:03:55,865 --> 01:03:57,230
Beau Willie!
774
01:03:57,333 --> 01:04:00,393
-Give me the babies!
-Get off! How're you gonna do this to me?
775
01:04:00,503 --> 01:04:03,028
Help her.
776
01:04:03,139 --> 01:04:08,702
Help her! Help her! Help! Help her!
777
01:04:11,414 --> 01:04:13,939
Help! Help!
778
01:04:17,286 --> 01:04:18,253
Here they come!
779
01:04:21,624 --> 01:04:24,616
Help her! Help her!
780
01:04:24,727 --> 01:04:28,925
Help her! Help her! Help her! Help her!
781
01:04:31,434 --> 01:04:36,497
Help her! Help her! Help her!
Help her somebody!
782
01:04:36,739 --> 01:04:38,570
Don't just stand there!
783
01:04:42,712 --> 01:04:45,180
-Willie!
-Oh, my God.
784
01:04:45,514 --> 01:04:47,038
You're gonna marry me, bitch!
785
01:04:47,149 --> 01:04:49,140
-Beau!
-Answer!
786
01:04:52,655 --> 01:04:54,589
No, please don't do that.
787
01:05:01,564 --> 01:05:02,826
No!
788
01:05:15,144 --> 01:05:17,840
Where?
789
01:05:17,947 --> 01:05:19,744
ln my apartment.
790
01:05:19,849 --> 01:05:22,716
ln your apartment? A friend?
791
01:05:25,521 --> 01:05:29,287
-Very difficult to press charges against.
-He's not a friend.
792
01:05:35,932 --> 01:05:39,390
You'll hear things like,
793
01:05:42,738 --> 01:05:46,265
''She knew him. She must have wanted it.
794
01:05:46,375 --> 01:05:49,606
''A misunderstanding.
795
01:05:49,712 --> 01:05:52,306
''These things happen.
796
01:05:53,282 --> 01:05:57,378
''She invited him in.
What did she expect was gonna happen?''
797
01:05:57,486 --> 01:06:00,148
Ma'am, are you sure you didn't suggest?
798
01:06:05,561 --> 01:06:06,550
No.
799
01:06:11,467 --> 01:06:14,561
l have to ask. Had you been drinking?
800
01:06:18,140 --> 01:06:21,576
One sip of wine. l don't drink.
801
01:06:26,816 --> 01:06:32,550
A rapist doesn't have to be a stranger
to be legitimate.
802
01:06:35,925 --> 01:06:37,756
Someone you never saw.
803
01:06:40,396 --> 01:06:42,990
But if you've been in public with him,
804
01:06:45,234 --> 01:06:46,826
danced one dance,
805
01:06:50,539 --> 01:06:52,734
kissed him goodbye lightly
806
01:06:56,345 --> 01:06:57,972
with closed mouth,
807
01:07:00,449 --> 01:07:03,509
pressing charges will be as hard
808
01:07:04,787 --> 01:07:09,486
as trying to keep your legs closed
while five fools try to run a train on you.
809
01:07:12,161 --> 01:07:14,527
''These men, friends of ours
810
01:07:16,399 --> 01:07:21,996
''Who smile nice and stay employed
And take us out to dinner
811
01:07:24,774 --> 01:07:29,711
''Lock the door behind you
And we are left with the scars
812
01:07:33,149 --> 01:07:36,016
''Being betrayed by men who know us
813
01:07:38,454 --> 01:07:45,018
''And expect like the stranger we always
Thought was coming that we will submit
814
01:07:51,333 --> 01:07:52,960
''We must have known
815
01:08:01,410 --> 01:08:07,212
''Women relinquish all personal rights
816
01:08:08,284 --> 01:08:12,914
''ln the presence of a man who could
Apparently be considered a rapist
817
01:08:14,356 --> 01:08:17,348
''Especially if he has been
Considered a friend
818
01:08:20,296 --> 01:08:22,059
''And is no less worthy
819
01:08:24,533 --> 01:08:28,128
''Of being beat
820
01:08:29,672 --> 01:08:32,470
''Within an inch of his life
821
01:08:36,712 --> 01:08:41,979
''Being publicly ridiculed
Having two fists shoved up his ass
822
01:08:43,686 --> 01:08:49,249
''Then the stranger we always thought
lt would be who never showed up
823
01:08:58,234 --> 01:09:01,397
'''Cause it turns out
The nature of rape has changed
824
01:09:05,608 --> 01:09:10,443
''We can now meet them
ln circles we frequent for companionship
825
01:09:15,084 --> 01:09:21,250
''See them at the coffeehouse
With someone else we know
826
01:09:26,162 --> 01:09:30,030
''We could even have them over for dinner
827
01:09:32,501 --> 01:09:36,164
''And get raped in our own houses
828
01:09:38,707 --> 01:09:40,140
''By invitation
829
01:09:42,311 --> 01:09:43,938
''By invitation''
830
01:09:52,721 --> 01:09:55,849
Okay. l'll pick the bastard up.
831
01:10:01,597 --> 01:10:03,497
-l'm looking for my daughter.
-What's her name?
832
01:10:03,599 --> 01:10:05,931
Nyla Adrose.
833
01:10:06,035 --> 01:10:09,027
She's with a social worker.
834
01:10:09,138 --> 01:10:11,436
Police found her passed out in the street.
ln here.
835
01:10:15,911 --> 01:10:17,538
Mama, please don't be mad at me.
836
01:10:17,646 --> 01:10:22,743
Rock of ages, let me hide myself in thee
from this sin.
837
01:10:23,419 --> 01:10:25,216
l'm sorry, Mama.
838
01:10:26,855 --> 01:10:28,823
Can you remember anything at all?
839
01:10:30,526 --> 01:10:32,551
Speak, child.
840
01:10:36,098 --> 01:10:37,565
All l remember
841
01:10:44,440 --> 01:10:45,668
''ls tubes
842
01:10:48,244 --> 01:10:52,738
''Tables
Whitewashed windows
843
01:10:53,816 --> 01:10:57,479
''Grime from age wiped over once
844
01:10:59,989 --> 01:11:03,186
''Eyes crawling up on me
845
01:11:06,128 --> 01:11:08,995
''Eyes rolling in my thighs
846
01:11:11,800 --> 01:11:15,065
''Metal horses gnawing
847
01:11:19,308 --> 01:11:23,608
''My womb dead
848
01:11:25,347 --> 01:11:28,748
''Get off of me all of this blood, bones
849
01:11:29,852 --> 01:11:33,219
''Shattered like soft ice-cream cones
850
01:11:36,892 --> 01:11:39,690
''l couldn't have her looking at me pregnant
851
01:11:41,563 --> 01:11:46,193
''l couldn't have my friends see this
852
01:11:47,069 --> 01:11:50,004
''Dying, dangling between my legs.
853
01:11:53,742 --> 01:11:55,607
''So l didn't say a thing
854
01:11:58,647 --> 01:11:59,978
''Not a sigh
855
01:12:01,250 --> 01:12:04,913
''Or a fast scream to get those eyes off of me
856
01:12:07,389 --> 01:12:10,085
''Get those steel rods out of me
857
01:12:13,495 --> 01:12:14,655
''This hurts
858
01:12:18,467 --> 01:12:20,059
''This hurts me
859
01:12:24,506 --> 01:12:26,030
''Nobody came
860
01:12:30,312 --> 01:12:31,939
'''Cause nobody knew
861
01:12:34,783 --> 01:12:35,750
''Once
862
01:12:38,320 --> 01:12:42,017
''l was pregnant
863
01:12:45,494 --> 01:12:47,985
''and ashamed''
864
01:12:48,097 --> 01:12:49,428
of myself.
865
01:13:00,809 --> 01:13:03,539
-Oh, no! No! No!
-What's going on?
866
01:13:04,947 --> 01:13:08,815
Crazy-ass man dropped her children
out the fifth-story window.
867
01:13:11,286 --> 01:13:13,277
Why'd he do that?
868
01:13:14,156 --> 01:13:15,248
l apologize in advance,
869
01:13:15,357 --> 01:13:19,157
but l'm gonna have to ask
each of you a few questions.
870
01:13:19,261 --> 01:13:23,027
-Did each of you witness what happened?
-Yes.
871
01:13:23,132 --> 01:13:26,533
-How do you all know each other?
-Well, l don't know.. .
872
01:13:26,635 --> 01:13:29,627
l'm the manager of the apartments.
l live next door to her.
873
01:13:29,738 --> 01:13:31,763
-She's my assistant.
-Okay.
874
01:13:31,874 --> 01:13:32,841
Donald.
875
01:13:37,379 --> 01:13:38,676
Excuse me.
876
01:13:50,692 --> 01:13:54,184
-What?
-What did you do? What did you do?
877
01:13:54,296 --> 01:13:58,528
-Mama! Stop it, Mama!
-You sent her there. You sent her there.
878
01:14:00,402 --> 01:14:05,169
-You are the darkness. What did you do?
-You all right, baby?
879
01:14:06,942 --> 01:14:10,844
Get out. Get out.
880
01:14:11,480 --> 01:14:13,311
Do you even know her name?
881
01:14:13,415 --> 01:14:16,578
Do you even know her?
Do you know anything about her? Get out!
882
01:14:16,685 --> 01:14:20,177
-Get out! Get out before l kill you! Get out!
-No, no. Mama, stop it!
883
01:14:25,060 --> 01:14:26,493
What's wrong with you?
884
01:14:27,296 --> 01:14:30,697
Letting all these men
crawl up inside you like that.
885
01:14:30,799 --> 01:14:34,963
How can you have any relationship
with God inside me?
886
01:14:39,942 --> 01:14:41,466
She could've killed her.
887
01:14:42,845 --> 01:14:46,008
-She could've killed me.
-l was with you!
888
01:14:46,114 --> 01:14:47,911
-You think that made it okay?
-Yes!
889
01:14:48,016 --> 01:14:49,677
-l didn't want to be there!
-l was with you!
890
01:14:49,785 --> 01:14:52,549
-l didn't want to be there!
-l was watching her!
891
01:14:52,654 --> 01:14:54,053
You weren't by yourself!
892
01:14:54,156 --> 01:14:56,886
l didn't want to be.. . You made me go!
893
01:15:07,803 --> 01:15:13,036
She's an alcoholic demon.
She could've killed her.
894
01:15:20,048 --> 01:15:22,016
You sent her there alone.
895
01:15:38,667 --> 01:15:43,263
The pair of you
could not have come from me.
896
01:15:50,612 --> 01:15:52,671
He only left you that money
897
01:15:54,716 --> 01:15:56,650
so you could control me,
898
01:15:58,287 --> 01:15:59,652
like he did.
899
01:16:05,160 --> 01:16:07,856
He used to put his hands up my dress,
900
01:16:11,600 --> 01:16:14,000
told me l was the only one he needed.
901
01:16:22,711 --> 01:16:24,542
He told me l was ugly.
902
01:16:29,718 --> 01:16:34,621
And when l was 15,
he gave me to a white man.
903
01:16:36,625 --> 01:16:39,719
He said he wanted beautiful grand-girls.
904
01:16:40,896 --> 01:16:42,193
No.
905
01:16:43,131 --> 01:16:44,496
Not like me.
906
01:16:50,072 --> 01:16:52,836
He said, ''Don't sleep with the darkness.' '
907
01:16:57,012 --> 01:17:00,448
-And then you came.
-Mama, please stop lying.
908
01:17:04,119 --> 01:17:06,644
-He touched you.
-Shut up!
909
01:17:06,755 --> 01:17:09,519
He touched you, too.
910
01:17:11,693 --> 01:17:15,527
l can tell. l can smell it on you.
911
01:17:18,333 --> 01:17:20,563
You don't know me.
912
01:17:23,939 --> 01:17:24,997
l do.
913
01:17:27,542 --> 01:17:28,873
l know you.
914
01:17:32,481 --> 01:17:35,575
''You used to wear
915
01:17:35,684 --> 01:17:38,710
''These orange butterflies.. .
916
01:17:38,820 --> 01:17:41,448
''l am a deliberate coquette.. .
917
01:17:41,556 --> 01:17:43,990
-''.. .A nd aqua sequins.. .
-''.. .W ho could never do without.. .
918
01:17:44,092 --> 01:17:45,855
''.. .Ensconced between slight bosoms
919
01:17:46,294 --> 01:17:48,023
''.. .W hat l want
920
01:17:48,130 --> 01:17:51,190
-''And l wanted to be unforgettable
-''Silk roses darting from behind your ears
921
01:17:52,634 --> 01:17:56,070
-''The passion flower of you.. .
-''l wanted to be a memory
922
01:17:56,571 --> 01:17:59,404
-''.. .Meandered down Hoover Street.. .
-''A wound to every man
923
01:17:59,508 --> 01:18:01,499
-''Arrogant enough to want me
-''.. .past dark shuttered houses
924
01:18:01,610 --> 01:18:04,272
''Where women from Louisiana shelled peas
Round three o'clock
925
01:18:04,379 --> 01:18:09,146
-''And sent their sons whistling to the store
-''l am the wrath of women in windows
926
01:18:09,251 --> 01:18:12,152
''Fingering shades
Lace curtains
927
01:18:12,287 --> 01:18:15,415
-''Camouflaging despair and stretch marks
-''You glittered in heat
928
01:18:15,524 --> 01:18:18,425
''Seemed to be looking for a ride
When you wasn't
929
01:18:18,794 --> 01:18:21,228
-''And absolutely eyed every man.. .
-''l glittered
930
01:18:21,329 --> 01:18:24,560
-''.. .W ho wasn't lame, white, or nodding out
-''Honestly delighted, l am desired.. .
931
01:18:25,734 --> 01:18:29,602
''You let your thigh slip
From under your skirt crossing the street
932
01:18:29,705 --> 01:18:33,971
-''.. .T o experience my body and spirit.. .
-''You slowed to be examined
933
01:18:34,076 --> 01:18:38,172
''.. .T earing so easily
Blending with theirs
934
01:18:38,947 --> 01:18:42,246
-''l watched you
-''And they were so happy
935
01:18:42,350 --> 01:18:44,648
''The rhinestones etching
The corners of your mouth suggested
936
01:18:44,753 --> 01:18:48,655
''Tears, fresh kisses
That had done no good.. .
937
01:18:49,291 --> 01:18:51,657
''Full and wet
938
01:18:51,760 --> 01:18:54,888
''Lined with iridescent feathers
The hairs around your navel.. .
939
01:18:54,996 --> 01:18:58,159
-''And l kissed them reverently
-''.. .Seemed to dance and you never let on.. .
940
01:18:58,800 --> 01:19:05,638
''That you knew from behind
Your waist was aching to be held''
941
01:19:08,744 --> 01:19:10,575
You don't know me.
942
01:19:11,313 --> 01:19:12,644
l know you.
943
01:19:15,784 --> 01:19:18,719
You're the devil.
944
01:19:23,492 --> 01:19:25,221
Get out.
945
01:19:37,939 --> 01:19:39,133
Get out!
946
01:19:54,322 --> 01:19:57,155
You don't know me. You don't know me!
947
01:19:59,494 --> 01:20:01,086
Get out!
948
01:20:03,698 --> 01:20:08,397
You think you're so holy?
You let him do that to me!
949
01:20:11,006 --> 01:20:12,906
You're just like me!
950
01:20:15,277 --> 01:20:17,006
You're just like me!
951
01:20:27,022 --> 01:20:31,083
What the hell are you looking at,
you old bitch?
952
01:20:31,893 --> 01:20:32,860
Nothing.
953
01:20:42,771 --> 01:20:44,204
Open my door.
954
01:20:49,044 --> 01:20:51,171
Not till you apologize
for talking to me like that.
955
01:20:51,279 --> 01:20:55,875
l said open this motherfucking door!
Open my door!
956
01:21:25,547 --> 01:21:28,675
Hey, hey, hey!
What the hell are you doing in here?
957
01:21:30,886 --> 01:21:34,982
Have you lost your damn mind?
Get your ass out of my apartment.
958
01:21:35,090 --> 01:21:37,650
Gilda! Gilda!
959
01:21:39,961 --> 01:21:41,724
Sit down and shut up.
960
01:21:43,865 --> 01:21:48,097
-l'm gonna say this for the last time.
-Sit down and shut up.
961
01:21:50,372 --> 01:21:54,775
lf you don't put this ice on your face,
you're gonna turn black and blue.
962
01:21:56,378 --> 01:21:57,845
You want that?
963
01:22:11,026 --> 01:22:13,688
-lt makes sense, you know.
-What?
964
01:22:14,963 --> 01:22:16,590
You and your mama.
965
01:22:20,101 --> 01:22:23,502
Sleeping with all these men
thinking it's just sex.
966
01:22:24,439 --> 01:22:27,670
lt ain't just sex, honey. lt all has a root.
967
01:22:28,043 --> 01:22:30,807
And you gotta find that root to pluck it.
968
01:22:33,014 --> 01:22:38,042
''At 4:30 a.m . you rise
Moving the arms and legs that trapped you
969
01:22:39,554 --> 01:22:43,581
''You sighed
Affirming the sculptured man
970
01:22:43,692 --> 01:22:47,321
''And make yourself a bath
Of dark musk-oil Egyptian crystals
971
01:22:47,429 --> 01:22:50,364
''And Florida water to remove his smell
972
01:22:50,465 --> 01:22:55,095
''To wash away the glitter
To watch the butterflies melt into suds
973
01:22:56,237 --> 01:22:59,070
''And the rhinestones
Fall beneath your buttocks
974
01:22:59,174 --> 01:23:03,611
''Like smooth pebbles in a Missouri creek
Laying in water
975
01:23:05,814 --> 01:23:08,248
''You become yourself
976
01:23:08,350 --> 01:23:14,550
''Ordinary brown-braided woman
With big legs and full lips, regular
977
01:23:16,691 --> 01:23:21,025
''And those who fall prey to the dazzle
Of hips painted with orange blossoms
978
01:23:21,129 --> 01:23:23,620
''And magnolia-scented wrists
979
01:23:23,732 --> 01:23:26,963
''Had wanted no more
Than to lay between her sparkling thighs
980
01:23:27,068 --> 01:23:29,935
''And had planned on leaving before dawn
981
01:23:30,939 --> 01:23:34,340
''And when you finish writing your account
Of her exploit
982
01:23:34,442 --> 01:23:39,072
''ln a diary embroidered
With lilies and moonstones
983
01:23:40,482 --> 01:23:42,882
''You place the rose behind your ear
984
01:23:43,885 --> 01:23:47,286
''And cry yourself to sleep''
985
01:23:47,389 --> 01:23:51,018
Damn you, listening to all my business
through this wall.
986
01:23:53,061 --> 01:23:55,825
l used to be you.
987
01:24:10,278 --> 01:24:11,404
Frank?
988
01:24:13,848 --> 01:24:14,974
Frank?
989
01:24:18,686 --> 01:24:19,812
Frank?
990
01:24:21,423 --> 01:24:26,759
Not when l need him most.
Why do l always do this shit to myself?
991
01:24:52,487 --> 01:24:53,681
l got.. .
992
01:24:55,290 --> 01:24:56,314
Hey, baby.
993
01:24:56,758 --> 01:24:59,693
-Hey.
-l got your favorite Chinese.
994
01:25:02,564 --> 01:25:03,656
What's wrong?
995
01:25:05,200 --> 01:25:06,633
What's wrong?
996
01:25:08,870 --> 01:25:13,466
l'm okay. Just hold me. Just hold me.
997
01:25:13,741 --> 01:25:16,505
-You all right, baby?
-l'm okay.
998
01:25:16,611 --> 01:25:18,511
-l'm okay.
-Baby.
999
01:25:18,613 --> 01:25:20,638
-Just hold me.
-Yeah.
1000
01:25:20,748 --> 01:25:23,273
-Hold me.
-lt's gonna be all right, sweetheart.
1001
01:25:30,592 --> 01:25:32,082
Where were you?
1002
01:25:34,362 --> 01:25:37,820
Playing basketball with the fellas.
1003
01:25:37,932 --> 01:25:39,524
Jo, what's wrong?
1004
01:25:41,836 --> 01:25:44,703
My assistant's children
were murdered today.
1005
01:25:49,344 --> 01:25:52,177
-Wow.
-l saw it.
1006
01:25:52,280 --> 01:25:53,872
l saw everything.
1007
01:26:00,388 --> 01:26:02,549
For eight years.. .
1008
01:26:02,657 --> 01:26:07,151
Eight years this girl has been working
for me, and l never knew she was abused.
1009
01:26:07,262 --> 01:26:08,456
Crystal.
1010
01:26:10,798 --> 01:26:12,766
What kind of person am l?
1011
01:26:15,069 --> 01:26:18,596
Every single day, she's in my face, Carl.
l never knew it.
1012
01:26:22,844 --> 01:26:24,106
You okay?
1013
01:26:24,712 --> 01:26:27,306
l was sitting here and l was thinking,
1014
01:26:30,685 --> 01:26:34,086
''Who can l call? Who can l talk to?''
1015
01:26:34,189 --> 01:26:35,747
You should've called me.
1016
01:26:42,197 --> 01:26:45,655
Come on, come on. Come on.
1017
01:26:45,767 --> 01:26:48,895
l'm here now. Okay? l'm here.
1018
01:26:50,405 --> 01:26:53,033
Let me get you cleaned up, okay?
1019
01:26:53,141 --> 01:26:58,101
l'll get you cleaned up. l'll run a nice,
hot bath for you, make you feel better.
1020
01:26:58,213 --> 01:26:59,441
l got you, baby.
1021
01:27:11,159 --> 01:27:13,150
Mama, l am so sorry.
1022
01:27:19,968 --> 01:27:24,405
That that was growing inside you was a sin.
1023
01:27:24,505 --> 01:27:26,370
lt had to be destroyed.
1024
01:27:29,711 --> 01:27:32,373
You go pray to Elnohim for forgiveness.
1025
01:27:58,139 --> 01:28:01,233
l don't hear you praying.
1026
01:28:01,342 --> 01:28:05,210
Kind and gentle God, l pray
that you will forgive me, for l have sinned.
1027
01:28:05,313 --> 01:28:07,907
Give me the strength
to resist the temptations
1028
01:28:08,016 --> 01:28:11,975
-that the devil puts in front of me.
-l don't hear you praying.
1029
01:28:13,288 --> 01:28:16,052
l pray for your forgiveness,
1030
01:28:16,157 --> 01:28:19,320
-and then l can become a better person.
-Hear yourself, child.
1031
01:28:19,427 --> 01:28:22,328
We call upon you to take the devil
out of this child!
1032
01:28:22,430 --> 01:28:24,398
Take the devil out of this child!
1033
01:28:24,499 --> 01:28:28,094
Clear this child. Come out! Come out, child!
1034
01:28:28,536 --> 01:28:31,630
Why doesn't somebody come and save you?
1035
01:28:32,707 --> 01:28:34,504
Let go of me!
1036
01:28:37,412 --> 01:28:41,348
Repent! Repent! Repent!
1037
01:30:06,300 --> 01:30:07,289
Hi.
1038
01:30:11,672 --> 01:30:13,731
l can't get this blood out.
1039
01:30:16,844 --> 01:30:17,811
lt's here,
1040
01:30:18,813 --> 01:30:24,115
and people walking all over it,
my babies' blood.
1041
01:30:26,788 --> 01:30:31,350
A part of me knows this happened,
but most of me feels like l'm dreaming.
1042
01:30:36,197 --> 01:30:37,721
Am l awake?
1043
01:30:40,902 --> 01:30:42,597
l don't feel awake.
1044
01:30:46,908 --> 01:30:49,570
This must be what death feels like.
1045
01:30:53,915 --> 01:30:58,113
Have some respect for my babies!
1046
01:31:01,189 --> 01:31:03,521
-l'm sorry.
-Nyla.
1047
01:31:09,096 --> 01:31:13,863
-She just pulled my hair hard, that's all.
-Crystal, do you have a dry towel?
1048
01:31:16,137 --> 01:31:17,104
Crystal?
1049
01:31:19,040 --> 01:31:21,338
Can l have a dry towel?
1050
01:31:36,591 --> 01:31:39,754
No, l like you, too.
Hey, you better be careful.. .
1051
01:31:44,365 --> 01:31:47,630
-You happy now, Tangie?
-What're you doing in there?
1052
01:31:49,470 --> 01:31:52,132
You sent me to that woman and you knew.
1053
01:31:55,743 --> 01:32:00,680
You should have told me
that the $300 was for an abortion,
1054
01:32:00,781 --> 01:32:03,341
instead of lying like you did.
1055
01:32:08,222 --> 01:32:12,090
-Baby. Baby, who's that?
-That's just my sister.
1056
01:32:12,193 --> 01:32:14,388
Can she come over and join us?
1057
01:32:16,097 --> 01:32:18,429
-She's 16.
-And?
1058
01:32:20,434 --> 01:32:23,801
Motherfucker, get your ass
out of my hallway.
1059
01:32:23,905 --> 01:32:27,602
-Baby.
-No, l don't want to see your face!
1060
01:32:27,708 --> 01:32:29,676
l don't want to see your face!
1061
01:32:29,777 --> 01:32:31,870
Crazy bitch.
1062
01:32:31,979 --> 01:32:37,508
Yeah, you got the short eyes. Yeah?
You like to fuck little boys, too?
1063
01:32:37,618 --> 01:32:41,850
You like me 'cause l got my little titties?
They remind you of a kid?
1064
01:32:41,956 --> 01:32:43,787
Sick-ass motherfucker!
1065
01:32:45,593 --> 01:32:47,493
-What's she doing in here?
-Who are you?
1066
01:32:47,595 --> 01:32:49,529
l'm her sister.
1067
01:32:49,630 --> 01:32:53,430
She had a fight with your mother.
l'm gonna let you guys talk.
1068
01:33:01,175 --> 01:33:04,406
-Hey.
-lt's not funny.
1069
01:33:07,315 --> 01:33:11,046
Sweetie, with a mother like ours,
you better learn how to laugh,
1070
01:33:11,152 --> 01:33:15,145
to keep from crying. Did she do the oil?
1071
01:33:18,092 --> 01:33:19,559
l got it, too.
1072
01:33:21,395 --> 01:33:25,388
But l did not think that she would do it
1073
01:33:25,499 --> 01:33:29,333
-to her favorite.. .
-Stupid bitch! Stop laughing at me!
1074
01:33:29,437 --> 01:33:30,904
lt's not funny!
1075
01:33:33,107 --> 01:33:34,665
l'm sorry.
1076
01:33:37,311 --> 01:33:40,610
No, l know what it's like to be laughed at.
1077
01:33:41,382 --> 01:33:45,011
-l apologize.
-Why do you hate me so much, Tangie?
1078
01:33:48,022 --> 01:33:52,482
-l don't hate you.
-Yeah? Because you act like it.
1079
01:33:54,428 --> 01:33:56,658
Yeah, l know.
1080
01:34:08,142 --> 01:34:09,336
Come on.
1081
01:34:17,051 --> 01:34:20,680
You can't love somebody
with that much hurt in them.
1082
01:34:23,190 --> 01:34:25,488
l'm learning that more and more.
1083
01:34:28,062 --> 01:34:30,462
l don't know what's wrong with me.
1084
01:34:32,333 --> 01:34:35,996
''l've lost touch with reality
l don't know who's doing it
1085
01:34:36,337 --> 01:34:39,397
''l thought l was, but l was stupid
1086
01:34:42,943 --> 01:34:44,706
''l was able to be hurt
1087
01:34:47,948 --> 01:34:49,643
''And that's not real
1088
01:34:51,519 --> 01:34:52,850
''Not anymore
1089
01:34:55,756 --> 01:34:57,451
''We should be immune
1090
01:35:00,061 --> 01:35:01,790
''lf we're still alive
1091
01:35:06,600 --> 01:35:09,091
''How are we still alive?
1092
01:35:13,474 --> 01:35:16,705
''My dependency on other living beings
For love
1093
01:35:20,748 --> 01:35:22,545
''l survive on intimacy
1094
01:35:24,318 --> 01:35:26,912
''And tomorrow that's all l've got going
1095
01:35:28,622 --> 01:35:32,285
''lt's all l've got
Being alive
1096
01:35:35,029 --> 01:35:36,997
''And being a woman
1097
01:35:38,666 --> 01:35:42,534
''Being colored is a metaphysical dilemma
l haven't conquered yet
1098
01:35:46,440 --> 01:35:48,840
''Do you see the point?''
1099
01:35:48,943 --> 01:35:52,174
We're sisters, Tangie.
1100
01:35:52,279 --> 01:35:56,511
l think the least that we can do
is just be there for each other.
1101
01:36:00,755 --> 01:36:04,282
''Once there were quadroon balls
1102
01:36:04,391 --> 01:36:06,325
''Elegance in St. Louis
1103
01:36:09,463 --> 01:36:13,092
''Laced mulattoes
Gambling down the Mississippi
1104
01:36:14,101 --> 01:36:17,002
''To Memphis, New Orleans
1105
01:36:17,104 --> 01:36:22,303
''And okra crepes near the bayou
Where the poor white trash would sing
1106
01:36:22,409 --> 01:36:26,402
''Moaning strange liquid tones
Through the swamps
1107
01:36:27,882 --> 01:36:30,316
''Sechita had heard these things
1108
01:36:30,417 --> 01:36:34,080
''She pushed the clinging Delta dust
With painted toes
1109
01:36:34,188 --> 01:36:37,351
''Creole Carnival was playing Natchez
1110
01:36:37,458 --> 01:36:41,861
''Sechita, Egyptian goddess of creativity
Second millennium
1111
01:36:41,962 --> 01:36:45,591
''Threw her heavy hair in a coil over her neck
1112
01:36:45,699 --> 01:36:50,102
''The recording of history
Spread crimson oil on her cheeks
1113
01:36:50,204 --> 01:36:51,796
''Waxed her eyebrows
1114
01:36:51,906 --> 01:36:56,866
''And unconsciously slugged
The last hard whiskey in the glass
1115
01:36:56,977 --> 01:36:59,775
''The broken mirror she used
To decorate her face
1116
01:37:00,514 --> 01:37:05,178
''Made her forehead tilt backwards
Her cheeks appear sunken
1117
01:37:06,654 --> 01:37:10,215
''Sechita had learned to make allowances
For the distortions
1118
01:37:10,324 --> 01:37:14,624
''But the heavy dust of the Delta
Left a tinge of grit and darkness
1119
01:37:14,728 --> 01:37:17,424
''On every one of her dresses
1120
01:37:17,531 --> 01:37:21,262
''Sechita was anxious
To get back to St. Louis
1121
01:37:21,368 --> 01:37:25,566
''The dirt there didn't crawl from the earth
lnto your soul
1122
01:37:25,673 --> 01:37:29,336
''At least in St. Louis
The grime was store-bought
1123
01:37:29,443 --> 01:37:31,434
''Second-hand.
1124
01:37:31,545 --> 01:37:35,140
''Sechita could hear redneck whoops
And slapping on the back
1125
01:37:35,249 --> 01:37:40,551
''She gathered her sparsely sequined skirt
And made her face immobile
1126
01:37:40,654 --> 01:37:44,055
''Like Nefertiti approaching her own tomb''
1127
01:37:45,259 --> 01:37:46,954
ls that him, ma'am?
1128
01:37:50,164 --> 01:37:53,190
Yes. What happened to him?
1129
01:37:56,036 --> 01:37:58,630
He raped a woman, and she stabbed him.
1130
01:38:01,508 --> 01:38:04,773
l guess the bastard got
what was coming to him, huh?
1131
01:38:27,134 --> 01:38:28,863
l guess so.
1132
01:38:29,803 --> 01:38:33,432
Paging Dr. Peter, please call...
1133
01:38:33,540 --> 01:38:35,303
Dr. Peter, please call...
1134
01:38:48,923 --> 01:38:52,723
-They just pumped her stomach.
-Can we see her?
1135
01:38:52,826 --> 01:38:57,024
Not just yet. As soon as she stabilizes,
l'll let everybody know.
1136
01:39:08,742 --> 01:39:11,802
Babe. Come on to bed.
1137
01:39:12,780 --> 01:39:14,247
l will.
1138
01:39:23,757 --> 01:39:25,850
How long are you gonna do this?
1139
01:39:27,261 --> 01:39:29,252
l was supposed to get them out of there.
1140
01:39:29,363 --> 01:39:33,424
Because we had to go see a doctor
about not being able to have a child,
1141
01:39:33,534 --> 01:39:37,732
meanwhile, leaving those two kids
in that apartment.. .
1142
01:39:37,838 --> 01:39:41,001
Hey, one thing has nothing to do
with the other.
1143
01:39:41,108 --> 01:39:45,442
No matter what, l love you. Come to bed.
1144
01:39:57,591 --> 01:39:58,751
Frank?
1145
01:39:58,859 --> 01:40:01,089
Frank, l know you thought
l forgot this morning, but l didn't.
1146
01:40:01,195 --> 01:40:04,096
Frank! Happy birthday?
1147
01:40:13,007 --> 01:40:15,032
No. No!
1148
01:40:25,352 --> 01:40:28,446
''Somebody almost walked off
With all of my stuff
1149
01:40:31,025 --> 01:40:34,426
''And didn't care enough
To send a note home saying
1150
01:40:34,528 --> 01:40:37,019
''l was late for my solo conversation
1151
01:40:37,131 --> 01:40:41,568
''Or two sizes too small
For my own tacky skirts
1152
01:40:41,668 --> 01:40:45,968
''What can anybody do with something
Of no value on an open market?
1153
01:40:46,073 --> 01:40:50,066
''Did you get a dime for my things?
Hey, man
1154
01:40:50,177 --> 01:40:53,374
''Where are you going with all of my stuff?
1155
01:40:53,480 --> 01:40:59,077
''This is a woman's trip
And l need my stuff to 'ooh' and 'ah' about
1156
01:40:59,987 --> 01:41:04,651
''Honest to God, somebody almost ran off
With all of my stuff
1157
01:41:04,758 --> 01:41:07,955
''And l didn't bring anything
But the kick and sway of it
1158
01:41:08,062 --> 01:41:11,657
''The perfect ass for my man
And none of it is theirs
1159
01:41:11,765 --> 01:41:14,962
''This is mine
Juanita's own things
1160
01:41:15,069 --> 01:41:18,630
''That's my name
Now give me my stuff
1161
01:41:18,739 --> 01:41:20,764
''l see you hiding my laugh
1162
01:41:20,874 --> 01:41:25,004
''And how l sit with my legs open sometimes
To give my crotch some sunlight
1163
01:41:25,112 --> 01:41:28,240
''This is some delicate leg
And whimsical kiss
1164
01:41:28,348 --> 01:41:30,782
''l gotta have to give to my choice
1165
01:41:30,884 --> 01:41:34,547
''So you can't have me
Unless l give me away
1166
01:41:34,655 --> 01:41:38,182
''And l was doing all that
Till you ran off on a good thing
1167
01:41:38,292 --> 01:41:43,958
''And who is this you left me with?
Some simple bitch with a bad attitude
1168
01:41:44,665 --> 01:41:47,156
''l want my things
1169
01:41:47,267 --> 01:41:50,566
''l want my arm with the hot iron scar
1170
01:41:50,671 --> 01:41:53,265
''l want my leg with the flea bite
1171
01:41:54,942 --> 01:41:57,911
''Yeah
l want my things
1172
01:41:58,011 --> 01:42:01,947
''l want my calloused feet
And quick language back in my mouth
1173
01:42:02,049 --> 01:42:05,485
''l want my own things
How l loved them
1174
01:42:05,586 --> 01:42:08,248
''Somebody almost ran off
With all of my stuff
1175
01:42:08,355 --> 01:42:11,688
''And l was standing there
Looking at myself the whole time
1176
01:42:11,792 --> 01:42:15,558
''lt wasn't a spirit that ran off with my stuff
1177
01:42:15,662 --> 01:42:20,725
''lt was a man whose ego
Walked 'round like Rodan's shadow
1178
01:42:21,168 --> 01:42:25,195
''lt was a man faster than my innocence
1179
01:42:25,305 --> 01:42:29,264
''lt was a lover
l made too much room for
1180
01:42:29,376 --> 01:42:32,345
''Almost ran off with all my stuff
1181
01:42:32,446 --> 01:42:36,405
''And the one running with it
Don't know he got it
1182
01:42:36,517 --> 01:42:41,716
''l'm shouting, 'This is mine'
And he don't even know he got it
1183
01:42:41,822 --> 01:42:46,384
''My stuff is the anonymous
Ripped-off treasure of the year
1184
01:42:46,493 --> 01:42:50,930
''Did you know
Somebody almost got away with me?
1185
01:42:51,698 --> 01:42:57,398
''Me, in a plastic bag under his arm
Me, Juanita Sims
1186
01:42:58,405 --> 01:43:02,102
''Somebody almost walked off
With all my stuff''
1187
01:43:04,311 --> 01:43:05,335
Tell them.
1188
01:43:14,121 --> 01:43:17,488
Why is it that every time somebody knocks
on this door yours opens?
1189
01:43:17,591 --> 01:43:19,616
Now, what do you want with her?
1190
01:43:19,726 --> 01:43:22,024
Just get your nosy ass
back in your apartment.
1191
01:43:22,396 --> 01:43:23,863
Go on!
1192
01:43:27,734 --> 01:43:29,793
Hi. Hi.
1193
01:43:31,338 --> 01:43:35,775
We're having a get together
at the community center tonight,
1194
01:43:37,311 --> 01:43:42,544
-and we would love for you to come.
-No. l don't think so.
1195
01:43:43,083 --> 01:43:45,108
lt will be good for you to get out, you know?
1196
01:43:45,219 --> 01:43:50,486
lt's in honor
of my little sister's going away to college,
1197
01:43:50,591 --> 01:43:54,027
and getting her out of my apartment.
lt'll be fun.
1198
01:43:54,127 --> 01:43:58,120
-lf l feel up to it.
-Yeah. Yeah, all right.
1199
01:43:58,232 --> 01:44:00,496
You can bring somebody if you want to.
1200
01:44:04,171 --> 01:44:06,139
Don't.. . Don't bring her.
1201
01:44:19,720 --> 01:44:22,154
l feel you looking at my ass, old lady.
1202
01:44:28,128 --> 01:44:32,428
-All right, you can come.
-ls that your way of apologizing to me?
1203
01:44:32,899 --> 01:44:36,892
l notice you haven't had any visitors lately.
1204
01:44:37,004 --> 01:44:40,963
-Mind your business.
-l see you're starting to mind yours.
1205
01:44:47,180 --> 01:44:51,480
''Ever since l realized
There was someone called a colored girl
1206
01:44:51,585 --> 01:44:54,418
''Or an evil woman
A bitch or a nag
1207
01:44:54,521 --> 01:44:58,821
''l been trying not to be that
And leave bitterness in somebody else's cup
1208
01:44:59,393 --> 01:45:02,556
''Come to somebody to love me
1209
01:45:02,663 --> 01:45:07,225
''Without deep and nasty smelling scars
From lye
1210
01:45:07,334 --> 01:45:13,239
''Or being left screaming in a street
Of lunatics whispering, 'Slut, bitch, bitch'
1211
01:45:13,340 --> 01:45:17,572
''Nigga, get out of here with all of that
l didn't have any of that for you
1212
01:45:17,678 --> 01:45:20,772
''l brought you what joy l found
1213
01:45:20,881 --> 01:45:22,849
''And l found joy
1214
01:45:25,118 --> 01:45:28,713
''And then there's that woman who hurt you
1215
01:45:28,822 --> 01:45:32,758
''And who you left three or four times
And then you went back
1216
01:45:32,859 --> 01:45:37,228
''After you put my heart
ln the bottom of your shoe
1217
01:45:37,331 --> 01:45:40,698
''You just walked back to where you hurt
1218
01:45:41,735 --> 01:45:43,703
''And l didn't have nothing
1219
01:45:43,804 --> 01:45:48,104
''So l went to where somebody
Had something for me
1220
01:45:48,642 --> 01:45:50,769
''But none of them were you
1221
01:45:56,249 --> 01:46:01,050
''l got a real dead loving here for you now
1222
01:46:03,523 --> 01:46:08,620
'''Cause l don't know anymore
How to avoid my own face wet with my tears
1223
01:46:08,729 --> 01:46:15,032
''Because l had convinced myself
That colored girls have no right to sorrow
1224
01:46:17,571 --> 01:46:19,402
''l lived for you
1225
01:46:19,506 --> 01:46:22,373
''l know l did it for myself
But l couldn't stand it
1226
01:46:22,476 --> 01:46:27,038
''l couldn't stand being sorry
And colored at the same time
1227
01:46:28,215 --> 01:46:32,276
''lt's so redundant in the modern world''
1228
01:46:35,021 --> 01:46:38,787
-l guess this is goodbye.
-Like you've never seen it before.
1229
01:47:10,424 --> 01:47:11,618
Crystal?
1230
01:47:18,698 --> 01:47:19,892
Crystal.
1231
01:47:22,235 --> 01:47:23,862
Did you eat today?
1232
01:47:28,341 --> 01:47:29,831
No, you didn't.
1233
01:47:38,819 --> 01:47:39,786
No.
1234
01:47:41,521 --> 01:47:44,979
Crystal, what is your plan?
1235
01:47:45,091 --> 01:47:49,323
What are you doing, baby?
You just gonna lay here and die?
1236
01:47:53,366 --> 01:47:55,926
How could he do it?
1237
01:47:56,736 --> 01:47:58,727
lt wasn't just him, honey.
1238
01:48:01,741 --> 01:48:04,005
But l tried to stop him.
1239
01:48:06,413 --> 01:48:10,406
You had to stop him
long before he got to that window.
1240
01:48:14,087 --> 01:48:18,990
-Are you saying this is my fault?
-What l'm saying, Crystal,
1241
01:48:19,092 --> 01:48:23,028
is you gonna have to take responsibility
in some of this.
1242
01:48:24,364 --> 01:48:28,664
How much of it you take is up to you,
but you gotta take some of it.
1243
01:48:32,539 --> 01:48:33,972
Until you do,
1244
01:48:36,276 --> 01:48:40,610
you're just gonna be living to die.
l know it hurts,
1245
01:48:43,416 --> 01:48:45,646
but you gotta get up from here.
1246
01:48:49,723 --> 01:48:52,021
But l didn't save my babies.
1247
01:48:52,559 --> 01:48:55,187
Then save some other woman's babies.
1248
01:48:57,364 --> 01:49:01,824
Help another woman who's missing
what you're missing.
1249
01:49:01,935 --> 01:49:05,393
There's too much life wrapped in your voice.
1250
01:49:06,373 --> 01:49:09,467
You gotta get up from here.
1251
01:49:29,329 --> 01:49:32,560
Come on. Come on, baby.
1252
01:49:36,002 --> 01:49:37,196
Come on.
1253
01:49:42,609 --> 01:49:45,942
Come on, baby. Come on. Come.
1254
01:49:47,781 --> 01:49:50,750
lt's all right.
1255
01:49:50,850 --> 01:49:52,340
Now, Crystal.
1256
01:49:56,723 --> 01:49:58,987
Crystal, l want you to breathe.
1257
01:50:01,795 --> 01:50:02,989
Come on.
1258
01:50:05,198 --> 01:50:06,392
Come on.
1259
01:50:07,867 --> 01:50:10,563
Yes. Yes.
1260
01:50:10,670 --> 01:50:14,470
Yes, baby, that's right.
That's right, baby, breathe.
1261
01:50:18,845 --> 01:50:24,408
Breathe. Breathe for me. That's right.
1262
01:50:26,519 --> 01:50:29,147
My last husband,
l had a detective follow him,
1263
01:50:29,789 --> 01:50:32,587
and even though l didn't do that with you,
1264
01:50:37,197 --> 01:50:42,294
l know l ignored everything in me
to be with you.
1265
01:50:46,506 --> 01:50:50,636
Baby, why don't you just tell me
what the hell you're talking about?
1266
01:50:56,983 --> 01:50:59,850
l went to my gynecologist,
1267
01:50:59,953 --> 01:51:04,890
and before you,
every level in my body was fine.
1268
01:51:09,863 --> 01:51:12,127
Baby, are you sick? Talk to me.
1269
01:51:15,769 --> 01:51:17,703
Tell me the truth, Carl.
1270
01:51:18,938 --> 01:51:21,236
Who have you been sleeping with?
1271
01:51:22,942 --> 01:51:25,206
Jo, l promise you since.. .
1272
01:51:25,311 --> 01:51:27,836
Since you and l have been together,
l have not slept with another woman,
1273
01:51:27,947 --> 01:51:29,812
and l promise you that.
1274
01:51:37,757 --> 01:51:42,490
-What about a man?
-What the fuck did you just ask me?
1275
01:51:43,129 --> 01:51:47,657
l see the way you look at them
when you think l'm not paying attention.
1276
01:51:47,767 --> 01:51:52,568
l see it.
The pool boy in the Hamptons, my driver,
1277
01:51:54,240 --> 01:51:57,767
the guy the other night at the opera.
l see it all, Carl.
1278
01:52:02,649 --> 01:52:04,207
You have no idea
1279
01:52:05,919 --> 01:52:10,720
how much l hate coming up
into this motherfucking house sometimes.
1280
01:52:10,824 --> 01:52:14,920
Every day, Joanna,
if it ain't you telling me what to wear,
1281
01:52:15,028 --> 01:52:17,588
how to look, calling the shots over my head.
1282
01:52:19,365 --> 01:52:20,832
Are you gay?
1283
01:52:20,967 --> 01:52:23,299
How you gonna ask me a question like that?
1284
01:52:23,436 --> 01:52:25,836
How did you marry a woman,
1285
01:52:27,440 --> 01:52:31,240
and then turn around
and let a man bend you over?
1286
01:52:32,312 --> 01:52:34,007
Ain't nobody bending me over.
1287
01:52:35,782 --> 01:52:39,445
So you doing the bending?
ls that what it is?
1288
01:52:40,987 --> 01:52:42,545
l don't wake up holding another man,
1289
01:52:42,655 --> 01:52:45,624
walking down the street
holding some man's hands.
1290
01:52:45,725 --> 01:52:47,317
That's gay, okay?
1291
01:52:50,063 --> 01:52:52,088
That ain't me.
1292
01:52:54,134 --> 01:52:58,002
You're saying a lie, Carl. You're saying
a lot without saying nothing at all.
1293
01:53:05,979 --> 01:53:07,276
l'm saying
1294
01:53:10,116 --> 01:53:14,678
that your husband is a man, Jo.
1295
01:53:18,691 --> 01:53:21,251
l'm a man every day of the week.
1296
01:53:23,163 --> 01:53:24,460
l'm a man.
1297
01:53:29,335 --> 01:53:32,827
l'm just a man who enjoys
1298
01:53:34,674 --> 01:53:36,232
having sex
1299
01:53:40,613 --> 01:53:42,513
with another man, Jo.
1300
01:53:45,652 --> 01:53:48,314
No attachments, no fucking.. .
1301
01:53:49,656 --> 01:53:51,817
No relationship,
1302
01:53:51,925 --> 01:53:55,520
just sex, you know?
1303
01:53:59,732 --> 01:54:02,826
That's what l'm saying,
1304
01:54:02,936 --> 01:54:04,403
and l'm sorry.
1305
01:54:12,011 --> 01:54:13,478
l'm sorry, Jo,
1306
01:54:18,218 --> 01:54:19,651
for my truth.
1307
01:54:24,023 --> 01:54:25,650
''Save your sorry
1308
01:54:28,027 --> 01:54:31,258
''One thing l don't need
Are any more apologies
1309
01:54:34,100 --> 01:54:38,434
''l got sorry greeting me at the front door
You can keep yours
1310
01:54:41,474 --> 01:54:45,069
''l don't know what to do with them
l can't even.. . l gotta throw some away
1311
01:54:45,178 --> 01:54:49,171
''l can't even get to the clothes in my closet
For all the sorries
1312
01:54:51,017 --> 01:54:53,178
''You know what? l'm gonna put a sign
1313
01:54:53,286 --> 01:54:56,687
''A sign on the door
Better yet, l'm gonna leave a voicemail
1314
01:54:56,789 --> 01:54:59,257
''A message on my voicemail
1315
01:54:59,359 --> 01:55:02,089
'''lf you called to say you're sorry
Then call somebody else
1316
01:55:02,195 --> 01:55:04,686
'''Cause l don't use them anymore'
1317
01:55:04,797 --> 01:55:09,825
''l let.. . l let 'l'm sorry, l didn't mean to'
1318
01:55:11,037 --> 01:55:12,163
''And 'how could l know about that?'
1319
01:55:12,272 --> 01:55:15,867
''Take a walk down a dark and musty street
ln Brooklyn, Carl
1320
01:55:20,813 --> 01:55:25,614
''Well, l'm gonna do exactly what l want
And l'm not gonna be sorry for none of it
1321
01:55:28,521 --> 01:55:30,853
''Let sorry soothe your soul
1322
01:55:32,725 --> 01:55:34,283
''l'll soothe mine
1323
01:55:38,765 --> 01:55:41,893
''You know
You were always being inconsistent
1324
01:55:42,001 --> 01:55:46,335
''Doing things
And then saying you're sorry about it
1325
01:55:46,439 --> 01:55:49,602
''Beating my heart to death
Talking about your sorry
1326
01:55:52,545 --> 01:55:55,412
''Yeah, well, l'm not gonna call you
1327
01:55:57,583 --> 01:56:00,051
''l'm not gonna be nice
1328
01:56:03,323 --> 01:56:07,316
''l'm gonna raise my voice
l'm gonna yell, l'm gonna scream
1329
01:56:10,363 --> 01:56:11,591
''l'm gonna break things
1330
01:56:11,698 --> 01:56:14,326
''l'm gonna race the engine
And tell all your secrets
1331
01:56:14,434 --> 01:56:18,370
''About you to your face
And l'm not gonna be sorry for none of it
1332
01:56:27,380 --> 01:56:29,314
''l loved you on purpose
1333
01:56:32,251 --> 01:56:35,277
''l was open on purpose
1334
01:56:42,195 --> 01:56:44,891
''l'm not even sorry about you being sorry
1335
01:56:48,501 --> 01:56:52,369
''You can take all your guilt
And all your grime
1336
01:56:52,472 --> 01:56:55,999
''And do whatever you want with it
Just don't give it to me
1337
01:56:57,710 --> 01:57:01,111
''l can't use another sorry
1338
01:57:04,250 --> 01:57:05,945
''Next time, Carl, admit it
1339
01:57:06,052 --> 01:57:08,782
''Admit that you're mean
Admit that you're mean
1340
01:57:08,888 --> 01:57:12,688
''That you're low-down, down-low, trifling
1341
01:57:13,693 --> 01:57:15,786
''And no count straight out
1342
01:57:22,035 --> 01:57:23,866
''lnstead of being sorry
1343
01:57:27,440 --> 01:57:29,169
''Enjoy being yourself''
1344
01:57:32,645 --> 01:57:36,172
When l get back, l want you gone
1345
01:57:37,083 --> 01:57:40,678
and take your HlV with you.
1346
01:57:57,003 --> 01:57:58,527
Excuse me. Excuse me.
1347
01:57:58,638 --> 01:58:01,368
And l am just so excited that you came.
l want you to meet everybody.
1348
01:58:01,474 --> 01:58:03,635
Ladies? Ladies?
1349
01:58:03,743 --> 01:58:07,474
This is Miss Bradmore. She's the one
who gave us all the money. Yes!
1350
01:58:09,782 --> 01:58:12,114
Now, now, l want to show you the roof.
l'm just so excited.
1351
01:58:12,218 --> 01:58:14,186
We had it fixed because of you!
1352
01:58:19,992 --> 01:58:21,050
Mama!
1353
01:58:25,364 --> 01:58:26,490
Come on.
1354
01:58:28,101 --> 01:58:31,730
-l brought her some things.
-ls it ticking?
1355
01:58:32,638 --> 01:58:33,969
Where is she?
1356
01:58:36,042 --> 01:58:37,339
Over here.
1357
01:58:39,912 --> 01:58:42,346
Nyla.
1358
01:58:42,448 --> 01:58:43,938
Hey, Mommy.
1359
01:58:44,851 --> 01:58:46,580
l'm so proud of you.
1360
01:58:55,194 --> 01:58:57,822
-You want some food, Mama?
-No.
1361
01:58:59,098 --> 01:59:00,360
l have to go.
1362
01:59:03,469 --> 01:59:07,030
This is the devil's music.
1363
01:59:07,140 --> 01:59:09,074
Yes, it is.
1364
01:59:11,644 --> 01:59:13,612
How many women in your classes have HlV?
1365
01:59:14,213 --> 01:59:19,446
Two out of four, and usually
from someone they trusted or loved.
1366
01:59:19,552 --> 01:59:22,715
You know, l don't know what's worse,
if it's the betrayal or the virus.
1367
01:59:22,822 --> 01:59:26,417
HlV is not the death sentence
that it used to be.
1368
01:59:26,526 --> 01:59:29,086
l mean,
l have patients that are on their meds
1369
01:59:29,195 --> 01:59:32,995
and have great lives and have been
living them for the last 20 years.
1370
01:59:33,499 --> 01:59:35,558
Women just give up so much.
1371
01:59:37,937 --> 01:59:39,564
Just so much of their power.
1372
01:59:40,072 --> 01:59:44,008
lt can happen to any of us.
Anyone that's in love.
1373
01:59:45,878 --> 01:59:48,278
Miss Juanita, look who's here.
1374
01:59:48,381 --> 01:59:49,848
-l can't believe.. .
-Crystal!
1375
01:59:49,949 --> 01:59:53,282
...I 'm having such a good time
and there's no man around.
1376
01:59:53,386 --> 01:59:55,946
Well, you leave that where it is.
1377
01:59:56,055 --> 01:59:59,923
My love is too beautiful
to have thrown back on my face.
1378
02:00:00,059 --> 02:00:01,959
-That's true.
-l like that.
1379
02:00:02,061 --> 02:00:04,791
-Try one.
-What?
1380
02:00:04,897 --> 02:00:06,455
Well, l do it all the time in my class.
1381
02:00:06,566 --> 02:00:10,229
You just say, ''My love is too.. .' '
and then you fill in the blank.
1382
02:00:10,336 --> 02:00:15,239
''My love is too sanctified
To have thrown back in my face''
1383
02:00:15,341 --> 02:00:19,539
-All right, now see?
-''My love is too magic
1384
02:00:20,379 --> 02:00:23,075
''To have thrown back in my face
1385
02:00:23,182 --> 02:00:27,710
''My love is too complicated
To have thrown back on my face
1386
02:00:28,087 --> 02:00:32,524
''My love is too music
To have thrown back on my face
1387
02:00:32,625 --> 02:00:36,994
''My love is too Saturday night
To have thrown back on my face''
1388
02:00:37,096 --> 02:00:38,290
Yes, and you remember that
1389
02:00:38,397 --> 02:00:42,163
when a man tries to walk off
with all of your stuff.
1390
02:00:42,268 --> 02:00:46,637
l know that's right,
or saying sorry a million times.
1391
02:00:46,739 --> 02:00:50,175
We all have ''l'm sorry'' stories, don't we?
1392
02:00:50,509 --> 02:00:54,536
''Get this. Just last week
My ex old man comes in saying
1393
02:00:54,647 --> 02:00:58,242
'''Baby, l don't know
How she got your number, l'm sorry'
1394
02:00:58,351 --> 02:01:02,549
''No, no, this is it
'Baby, you know l was high
1395
02:01:02,655 --> 02:01:06,056
-'''l'm sorry'
-'''l'm only human'
1396
02:01:06,158 --> 02:01:09,150
'''Our inadequacies
Are what make us human
1397
02:01:09,762 --> 02:01:13,163
'''lf we were perfect
We wouldn't have nothing to strive for
1398
02:01:13,266 --> 02:01:16,724
'''So, you might as well go on
And forgive me 'cause l'm sorry'
1399
02:01:16,836 --> 02:01:18,963
''This one is it.
1400
02:01:19,071 --> 02:01:22,404
'''l do you like l do you
'Cause l thought you could take it
1401
02:01:22,508 --> 02:01:25,477
'''No? l'm sorry'
1402
02:01:25,578 --> 02:01:28,274
'''Now l know you know l love you
1403
02:01:28,381 --> 02:01:31,942
'''But l ain't gonna love you
The way you want me to love you
1404
02:01:32,051 --> 02:01:33,484
'''l'm sorry'
1405
02:01:33,586 --> 02:01:34,814
'''Shut up, bitch
1406
02:01:41,060 --> 02:01:42,823
'''l told you l was sorry'''
1407
02:01:51,304 --> 02:01:52,601
lt's okay.
1408
02:02:01,647 --> 02:02:03,137
l asked myself,
1409
02:02:05,885 --> 02:02:07,978
how l could let that happen.
1410
02:02:16,228 --> 02:02:17,525
l realized
1411
02:02:21,634 --> 02:02:23,397
''l was missing something
1412
02:02:26,639 --> 02:02:29,802
''Something promised
1413
02:02:29,909 --> 02:02:32,275
''Something so important
1414
02:02:36,782 --> 02:02:38,511
''A laying on of hands
1415
02:02:41,454 --> 02:02:44,321
''Fingers near my forehead
1416
02:02:46,592 --> 02:02:50,585
''Strong, cool, moving
1417
02:02:52,865 --> 02:02:57,802
''Making me whole, sense, pure
1418
02:03:00,740 --> 02:03:03,709
''All of God coming into me
1419
02:03:05,010 --> 02:03:07,501
''Laying me open to myself
1420
02:03:11,150 --> 02:03:14,119
-''l was missing something
-''Something promised
1421
02:03:14,220 --> 02:03:17,212
-''Something free
-''A laying on of hands
1422
02:03:17,323 --> 02:03:21,987
''l know about laying on bodies
Laying out a man
1423
02:03:24,029 --> 02:03:27,521
''And bringing him all of my fleshy self
1424
02:03:27,633 --> 02:03:32,661
''And some of my pleasure being taken
Full, eager, wet, like l get sometimes
1425
02:03:36,742 --> 02:03:39,734
-''l was missing something
-''A laying on of hands
1426
02:03:39,845 --> 02:03:41,710
''Not my mama
1427
02:03:41,814 --> 02:03:45,750
''Holding me tight
Saying l'm always gonna be her girl
1428
02:03:45,851 --> 02:03:49,446
''Not a laying on a bosom and womb
1429
02:03:49,555 --> 02:03:52,456
''The laying on of hands
1430
02:03:52,558 --> 02:03:56,585
''The holiness of myself released
1431
02:03:56,695 --> 02:03:58,322
''l sat up one night
1432
02:04:00,366 --> 02:04:03,858
''Walking my apartment floors
1433
02:04:03,969 --> 02:04:07,063
''Screaming, crying
1434
02:04:08,307 --> 02:04:12,073
''The ghost of another woman
Who was missing what l was missing
1435
02:04:14,547 --> 02:04:18,574
''l wanted to jump out of my bones
Be done with myself
1436
02:04:19,952 --> 02:04:23,479
''Leave me alone
Go on in the wind
1437
02:04:27,026 --> 02:04:29,586
''lt was too much
1438
02:04:36,068 --> 02:04:37,899
''l fell into a numbness
1439
02:04:43,843 --> 02:04:45,811
''Until the only tree l could see
1440
02:04:47,813 --> 02:04:51,271
''Picked me up into her branches
1441
02:04:52,117 --> 02:04:53,709
''Held me in the breeze
1442
02:04:56,922 --> 02:05:01,723
''Made me dawn dew
That chill at daybreak
1443
02:05:15,474 --> 02:05:16,634
''The sun
1444
02:05:21,881 --> 02:05:23,314
''Wrapped me up
1445
02:05:26,218 --> 02:05:29,915
''Swinging rose light everywhere
1446
02:05:33,859 --> 02:05:36,157
''And the sky laid over me
1447
02:05:40,366 --> 02:05:41,993
''Like a million men
1448
02:05:48,607 --> 02:05:50,370
''l was cold
1449
02:05:52,578 --> 02:05:54,136
''l was burning up
1450
02:05:58,551 --> 02:06:01,952
''A child and endlessly weaving garments
For the moon
1451
02:06:09,094 --> 02:06:10,789
''With my tears
1452
02:06:13,866 --> 02:06:16,164
''l found God in myself
1453
02:06:21,340 --> 02:06:24,104
''And l loved her fiercely''